So, starting now. I will focus on moving forward. Or at very least moving. I dont want to remember my life like this. I know the playtime hours are inflated, but I still feel sick regaurdless. I wish everyone happy holidays and a happy life. Thank you for reading. I will try my hardest to be better.

I've completly dropped the game. I am terrified at the thought of wasted time. Even if that time would've been spent doing nothing. I think I've been using games to stop me from thinking, I put on videos and play games at the same time to drown out my thoughts. And I am panicing because of it.