I really want her to call me. To talk to me about this. Or anything else. I don't mind, as long as I can feel us both speaking, discussing, and thinking

I hope she will know who to ask to manage it. I don't want to lose her and for her to feel that way

My guess she will come home, get under bedsheet and try to sleep it off.. or scroll tiktok, to gain all the energy she spent on her emotion now

She still absolutely will feel bad about this today, or tomorrow, or in a week, a month..

Well. To the state that "I can think at least now"

Maybe she calmed herself a little

<<-- the person that desperately wants to be burden with all of her feelings btw

I want to trust her. I mostly try to ask if she wants to do anything and she texts "no" i can only trust that she's not lying. That she understands she needs to be alone for a moment, not because "i don't wanna burden anyone with my feelings now"

I can only hope she's at least aware what she does when she's feeling neutral. And will ask for help or tell her doctor

I don't know what to do. I want to be near and comfort but I can only do so much over a text

The 1/2 dose of her meds does really show she's returning to depressing state.. since she just hates to do them and the anxiety only feeds on it when she does

I really wish she will

Like. If she wrote about it then she couldn't brush the feeling and thoughts away

I mean, what words of comfort.. maybe I just need to be a little clingy

The bad thing is i cannot do anything with that. Only to trust her to give herself relax sometimes but. Knowing her.................

It's just... When she's overwhelmed she runs out of social battery and needs to rest and to be alone, and well. That just starting to be everyday iguess