I feel kinda stuck in my own cycle of doing nothing or barely enough and then not continuing, wish I could actually get on with it, but it's not like doing something like this is actually gonna help either. Still just living through life this whole time and not really sure on how to actually try

but it's been almost a year since I had the idea and I've done nothing at all besides try to reimagine the same bits that I've been thinking about for months now. And it doesn't get any better, cause I want to be able to get good at drawing, I've got things I wanna try to do, maybe even animate

Outside of what I did in there besides for a few things for one of my friends. And hey, it's not like I didn't have any ideas either, it was mainly just one but I did want to try doing a MMV, one like the ones done by NinjaristicNinja cause I found them really cool
youtu.be/eoJEn7MDht0?...

While I don't think that I was really all that good at it, it was neat, but yeah, I just stopped for no real reason, and I keep doing that with things. I went to vocational school to avoid working and it was a big focus on video editing there and again, I kinda enjoyed it, but I never did anything

and while those last couple of years of school were going on I eventually got interested in coloring manga pages and honestly it was kinda fun, but I hesitated a lot when it came to actually working on them, I haven't even tried to do any new one in about 2 years at this point I think

I had the thought and then I never acted on it and eventually just forgot, only reason I even remembered is cause of a thing at school when we graduated, we all got handed back old things we wrote for our future selves of potential wishes

The most was live back when I was a kid and I had more recently learned about youtubers (more specifically gaming ones) and that they managed to get success and actually make a living off of it, but even with that, I never tried anything with it, I never really uploaded anything on youtube