i just want to be cared for im so tired

i wish someone could just take pity on me for once, i always feel like im a fucking monster and even when i might deserve a break from feeling like this it feels like theres no one on the other end whos willing to reach out and listen. im not looking for help im looking for compassion

i know how unlikable i am. but am i really not worth listening to either?

taser is a professional hair stylist and milo is in a shitty pop punk band and they're GAY!!!!

im trying not let it get to my head but it's really difficult lmao. i had already been worrying about the outcome of the night for days, now this. i think it's a sign or something. who knows