Essentially closeted herself a bunch b/c of its ((which is unraveling itself just nows)).

But yeps, sorries for ranting. Literallies felt like was comfies enoughs to talkies abt it. Was ables to “manage” all the feelings &s stuffs from 2y of therapy, &s another year to be comfies talkies abt it.

Buts overalls, alls the girls (excluding that one school) were always super heckings welcomings to Kitty (eithers in the same class ors in upper classes); whiles the majority ofs guys in Kitty’s life fors the most part were extremely extremely uncomfies to be arounds.

Sos family really heckings saved Kitty froms a place wheres evens more things could have fricked Kitty ups.

Buts “hyper masculine” sport &s all of thats really dids do a number on her mentally &s socially.

Afters a horrid two years, was taken out of theres b/c family saw how hecking miserable was ins that place &s saw how Kitty was treateds. Alsos found outs like ~8 years ago thats the priest/pastor ofs the church there alsos did stuffs to kids &s got in troubles for it.

Literallies was a social outcast everywhere. Withs only the religion teacher (another nun) &s the priest brings people that didnt openly see/treat me like that (usually very kind). Thankfullys only two classmates (eventually) would treat me like a normal person, but took a long times.

,,,thats wasnts evens a person. Nots one of them &s not deserving of anything in life. Tell classmates that wasnt even a person, could push/shove/get away with murder on matters b/c “They’re not one of us”. Parents would even tell that to younger students/classes as well.

Ended ups being an extremely terrible environment. Once teachers &s kids found outs that wasnt baptized/“one of them”, ended up being treated like wasnt even a persons. Parents (who were ins their 40+) Woulds purposefully walk ups to Kitty and verbally aloud make sures to know,,,

Woulds be forced to move schools (family wasnts happy withs the teacher actions as wells)). Ended ups being a catholic school, wheres family assumed good impression b/c of principal ((who was a Nun &s was very welcoming &s nice)).

ands some classmates wouldnt care thankfullys. A lot ofs thems being the girls in the class ands one or twos guys ((one of which ams in light contact withs to this day all the way froms 1st grade)).

Sadlies got to the point wheres got teachers that didnt cares and woulds just single Kitty outs,,,

Some ofs the teachers woulds eventually gets it, bouts woulds be too lates in the year ((&s was extremely extremely fortunate to haves a family member that was ables to be active helps wise ins school/education)).

Likes teachers who woulds highlight peoples who hads high-energy as “problem-children” &s woulds “punish” them by not allowing them to go to/participate in recess. Hence woulds gets outcasted socially by others b/c they dont want that to happens to them.

Literallies justs pushes yous into a social cave &s justs dont wants to speaks to others.

Alsos got similar stuffs in school tos a degree, buts was the actions of adults that was passed off/imprinted ons to other kids that also woulds compound ons this,,,

Mosts of the adults werent helpful at alls there as wells. Was always justs tolds you justs have to “Man up”, “Stop being a pussy”, “Feelings dont matter ins a place like this”, “Stop being weak”, “Thats not how a real man would think/act”,,,

,,,ors likes wording things ins the worst possible ways continuously ((even when told that wording mades me uncomfies)). Likes, whens starting to shave legs &s stuffs it woulds always turn intos a deep shaming thing, versus askings abt why or stuffs.

,,,literallies being outside of its has beens such an eye opener abts how hecking toxic the culture &s people ares within its. Likes, loudly &s continually shaming peoples abt not being comfies showering withs the team ((b/c wasnt comfies abt body ors whos Kitty was ins a lot of areas)),,,

Likes, outside ofs the apps & stuffs, Kitty participated in sports which weres considered to be “hyper masculinity”, which ended ups being a super toxic place to be in year after year after years.

Likes, evens if hads a goal/wanteds to try &s take its as fars as possibles,,,

Ams not a second class citizen wheres the only important persons is yous in any way/shape/form &s ams subservient to anything that is said.

A super hecking turn-off &s justs makes the other stuffs ((thats will talkies downs below)) justs amplify,,,

Likes, ams also a persons who has hobbies &s stuffs. Enjoys talkings to peoples &s enjoys whens people seems to want to talkies to Kitty.

Not justs “you’d love to see my ________” ors “you’d make the perfect _______” ((cans madlibs the sentences)), &s only ramble abts that stuffs.

Experiences withs men ons datings stuffs:

felts like it was extremely rancid &s uncomfies talkings to guys, wheres they only saw Kitty as an object ((i.e. instantly &s only seeings her as smth for sex &s getting openly mad &s belligerent whens said ams uncomfies abt the advances))