mdni
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23, transfem, new jersey
main - @ddogfluid.bsky.social
she doesn't know she doesn't know she doesn't know
she doesn't know she doesn't know she doesn't know
nothing was lost
that wasn't already gone
and nothing was gained
that i had not already
known
nothing was lost
that wasn't already gone
and nothing was gained
that i had not already
known
one night is all i'd like
just one night where
i can sleep
i can dream
i can rest
without thinking
about you and about you
and the things you do
and the things we do
and the things you do
and i can sleep
and i can dream
and i can rest
without thinking about you
and about you
one night is all i'd like
just one night where
i can sleep
i can dream
i can rest
without thinking
about you and about you
and the things you do
and the things we do
and the things you do
and i can sleep
and i can dream
and i can rest
without thinking about you
and about you
where i don't remember
and to the point
where i can't recall
but in the end ive
drawn over and over
sketches of memories
one on top of the other
until the result is more
a mess of lines on lines
on lines on lines on lines
that vaguely resemble
what i think you look like
where i don't remember
and to the point
where i can't recall
but in the end ive
drawn over and over
sketches of memories
one on top of the other
until the result is more
a mess of lines on lines
on lines on lines on lines
that vaguely resemble
what i think you look like
there is a world where we can live
a world where we can live
without the pain and hate and cause
and without the trouble we have known
and more than one of us can
be happy
but i think this world is far away
and i hope one day we will see it
but i hope and hope and hope
and hope
there is a world where we can live
a world where we can live
without the pain and hate and cause
and without the trouble we have known
and more than one of us can
be happy
but i think this world is far away
and i hope one day we will see it
but i hope and hope and hope
and hope
and i'm not quite sure what i mean
and i'm less certain what you mean
but for a point far greater than i
and a point far greater than you
i remember what i was told
when the universe was young
and the grass held its breathe
just for you and me
and i'm not quite sure what i mean
and i'm less certain what you mean
but for a point far greater than i
and a point far greater than you
i remember what i was told
when the universe was young
and the grass held its breathe
just for you and me
and i still do
and i hate you
and i fear that i
always will
but i will remember
every inch and every second
every foot and every day
every mile and every single moment
that i loved you
and i will remember
and i will know
and i will care
and i will know
that in the end
i loved you
and i still do
and i hate you
and i fear that i
always will
but i will remember
every inch and every second
every foot and every day
every mile and every single moment
that i loved you
and i will remember
and i will know
and i will care
and i will know
that in the end
i loved you
in the footpath that i
have worn down over
many years
the prints have faded
and the grass has grown
and yet still the trail
floods when it rains
and the rain comes down
more and more these days
more than it should
and more since you
the prints have faded
and the grass has grown
in the footpath that i
have worn down over
many years
the prints have faded
and the grass has grown
and yet still the trail
floods when it rains
and the rain comes down
more and more these days
more than it should
and more since you
the prints have faded
and the grass has grown
"I'm Wet To The Bones From The Rain Coming Down"
"I'm Wet To The Bones From The Rain Coming Down"
i wish you existed again
and that your life wasn't
just the memory that is fading
and that your life wasn't
the pain i can remember
i wish you were real
and that you existed again
and that you were happy
like i remember
i wish you existed again
and that your life wasn't
just the memory that is fading
and that your life wasn't
the pain i can remember
i wish you were real
and that you existed again
and that you were happy
like i remember
hanging at the front?
saying welcome! everything's fine
and have no need for want?
have you seen the sign
hanging at the front?
saying do not enter,
no trespassing,
and the grass has grown over the fence
have you seen the sign?
hanging at the door?
no, it's now on the floor.
hanging at the front?
saying welcome! everything's fine
and have no need for want?
have you seen the sign
hanging at the front?
saying do not enter,
no trespassing,
and the grass has grown over the fence
have you seen the sign?
hanging at the door?
no, it's now on the floor.
everything is fine
everything works
and the sun still rises
and i lie and say
nothing works
and everything is fine
and the sun still rises
and i lie and i
can no longer say
anything is fine
but the sun still rises
and i lie
gone and forever
but still the sun rises
everything is fine
everything works
and the sun still rises
and i lie and say
nothing works
and everything is fine
and the sun still rises
and i lie and i
can no longer say
anything is fine
but the sun still rises
and i lie
gone and forever
but still the sun rises
none of it truly meant anything
and we lied to each other
for longer than we needed to
and in the end, i suppose
like the bulb dimming
from years of overuse
and never getting that break it needed
i suppose, that, in a way
the bulb knows when it can take no more
none of it truly meant anything
and we lied to each other
for longer than we needed to
and in the end, i suppose
like the bulb dimming
from years of overuse
and never getting that break it needed
i suppose, that, in a way
the bulb knows when it can take no more