Fhdkjddj anyhoots I feel better, accepting and moving on took much longer than I anticipated since I was still grieving the friendship still on and off. I still feel sad, understandably, but I’m moving forward now.

I wish more people would realize if you value your own worth & feelings, you shouldn’t be gaslighting yourself into thinking “oh I have to comply to this form of thinking despite it being against my own values to not break the relationship”

It will only do more harm to you in the end, but I digress

Gonna add, it wouldn’t hurt to learn to be more considerate,
in the sense of realizing what doesn’t affect you may affect others & taking those feelings into account. Otherwise it’s a cycle of false thinking “I did nothing wrong, so nothing needs to be changed” & expecting others to do the same

Not all paths end the same though. Unfortunately for this falling out, my trust was completely broken after a line was crossed too far. So I don’t want to have contact ever again, which takes a lot for me to decide on.

That being said, I genuinely hope they find healing and grow from all this, too.

Thankfully, I was able to connect with that person again after thinking I would never have a friendship with them again. I took a risk to reach out and I wanted to apologize for everything with my heart, not expecting anything back and it turned out okay 🩷

It’s hard to realize we can hurt others despite our intentions. But if they tell you “hey I’m still not feeling ok” that’s the cue for you to work things out if you truly care for them. I learned from a previous falling out after reflecting on my own actions that -I- needed to own up to my mistakes.

Learning about healthy boundaries, making genuine apologies, considering the feelings of others & taking accountability for one’s actions are all keys to a healthier relationship with anyone.

Things happen. True compassion to me is the care put in repairing the problem, not leaving things halfway.

It sucks bc I’m so family oriented too!! My entire life! I also genuinely care & love too hard I guess from being “mother goose” all my life

Anyway vent vent but I’m trying to hang in there. I’m also trying to invest my energy more wisely, and I don’t want this negativity to be my mantra anymore

I’m not a therapist but having to be the one trying to educate those living with you how “this behavior is actually unhealthy and inconsiderate” in a way they understand due to neurodivergency is…..incredibly difficult lol

I’m tired batman

I fear I’ve obtained so much internal baggage from years of “survival-mode” that I have little tolerance for insensitive behaviors… so it’s hard to rewire my brain and tell it to not let things affect me 🫠

These are excellent moments to reflect and analyze ur own biases mang, not do the opposite and Delete the post to try and hide what happened

I rarely do fanart but I gotta draw Hornet after I finish comms 😭🩷

I’ll be fine one min then the next, I Am Not (but I’ll live)