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Madness doesn't end
Friday, May 2nd 2025th, 19:00

I give up on love completely, i haven't been able to sleep properly thinking about all those days we used to hang out with each other, talk to each other and just be in each other's arms, i feel betrayed, i feel lost, i am alone in this, you left when i needed you.
May 2, 2025 at 11:02 AM
Much less I'd prefer to just quietly rid myself
March 21, 2025 at 1:40 PM
I'll come back once a month to just let it out, but what i really need is to vent my frustrations in a physical manner
March 20, 2025 at 5:02 PM
I cannot be saved nor am i favored, i can only sit and watch as my entire life falls around me, for i do not have the energy to take action nor do i have the will to do so, I'm just simply tired.
March 20, 2025 at 5:01 PM
The night is the only time i can make peace with my thoughts, but it is also a time that i dislike because of how quiet everything else is, i yearn for communication, affection and longing, but i am only longing for a peaceful goodbye to rid me of this world.
March 20, 2025 at 5:00 PM
Why did she choose me if she's just going to keep me in silence, nor does it matter if she ever makes time for someone like me, I'll stay in silence as long as it takes to become forgotten, everyone can move on, i can disappear, my life is only but a speckle of dust amidst golden jewelry.
March 20, 2025 at 4:58 PM
Anything to make them shut up, anything to just leave me in sorrow, i only wish to be forgotten, but i am always remembered by the wrong things i did. That's who i am.
March 20, 2025 at 4:56 PM
I can't, not like this, please just make it stop
March 20, 2025 at 4:55 PM
I hate everything that resides within me, i who speaks only nothing but distaste for myself, one who always speaks of false promises, me who is undeserving of everything that i have come to achieve, yet i stay challenged because i couldn't continue climbing.
March 20, 2025 at 4:54 PM
I've done, I've tried, I've failed.
This word is all but too familiar for me
It has become a state that is natural to me, if i ever don't 'fail' then i wouldn't be the same person
March 20, 2025 at 4:52 PM
Yep can't kill myself i don't want to her to blame herself
February 21, 2025 at 1:34 PM
I've cried too much already and this place i consider a family no longer, this is my personal hell, I've stayed quiet a bit too much
February 20, 2025 at 2:41 PM
I can't leave her, but i can't exactly stay here if i want it to be better, my options are limited and i can only come back later
I only have one more option if all else fails, well two sort of
February 20, 2025 at 2:40 PM
Kathy i promise i will come back for you no matter how long it takes
February 20, 2025 at 2:36 PM
I will not allow you to persevere
February 20, 2025 at 2:35 PM
Doesn't matter what i do or what i decide, long have i prepared myself for this suffering and i will not allow you this feeling of satisfaction
February 20, 2025 at 2:33 PM
My suffering isn't something to be made fun of, kick me in my sleep, yell insults at me for all i care, long have i been numbed your delusions
February 20, 2025 at 2:32 PM
I've made too many mistakes to allow them this victory this happiness
February 20, 2025 at 2:31 PM
I've made a promise, that no matter how grim or bleak things may be, i would always find a way
February 20, 2025 at 2:30 PM
I've tried no longer and for that, consequences befell me like the droplets of rain in a hurricane
February 20, 2025 at 2:30 PM
Death seems to be a plausible option, but somehow i am no longer someone who dreams to means of a quick end
February 20, 2025 at 2:28 PM
I'm nothing, i am no one, i am not a person no longer, i am a deficit, a strain, a parasite
February 20, 2025 at 2:27 PM
I'm painted like the liar, the sinner, the Criminal, I'm nothing but the person that they want to see who suffers, I've made mistakes, blunders and things that i regret, I've tried to redeem but all they see are the failures and the mistakes that i meant to be
February 20, 2025 at 2:27 PM
I don't really feel like im going anywhere tbh, i have a set goal but at the same time im confused on where to go, im stuck in a loop of being lazy, doing stuff, getting tired and repeating this stupid shit that i keep doing
December 12, 2024 at 10:33 AM
Also i competed in a poster making competition but didn't go to the awarding, i just did it for fun never really wanted to win anything
December 12, 2024 at 10:30 AM