Thank you for the hug ❤️

Normally I'd be crying under the blanket but today I'll do smth different from my regular and I'm going to try distracting myself with some programming exercises instead.

Thank youuu

I had a psychiatrist visit early today, and new medication has been added. I'll see if things goes well within a couple of days.

And also my thoughts are so frequently that i have those every couple of minutes

Well everyone has intrusive thoughts, but what I have is quite intense that it hinders me from functioning appropriately and properly. I literally can't touch a living being without having this intense thought

I am also aware of the fact that stress and anxiety is some of my personality flaws. However, a I'm really having a hard time to live with these atm, it is way worse than it used to be.

My thoughts are mostly about harming people in many ways that I don't wanna share, and I also have thoughts about accidents, for instance, I am on the bus and I feel like we're gonna have an accident, and these really reduce my functionality within the day. It's just so exhausting. +

However, I know and am aware of the fact that I really don't wanna do any of these things, but I still cannot get rid of these thoughts, and it's annoying and terrifying. The doctor prescribed new medications as well as she raised the dosage of my main medicines. +

The good part of today was that we had a seminar about schizophrenia, and even though I'm not schizophrenic, I feel happy to learn and understand about it