Like I know this is the least important shit ever and I'm feeling a very childish type of irritation. But it's so exhausting to control myself to not doing a scene™

He molested me when I was 10 years old btw

And so I enter back on the stupid self-hate circle

She's so dumb I hate her

Not a "real job" in the sense I'm not getting paid it's a passion project

It makes eating super uncomfortable

And I wonder if I'm just clinging to them because of the isolation

And idk I kinda don't believe in long distance relationships plus I don't think they feel the same

I know it's bad for my body but it's so exhausting to just exist..

But I can't keep doing this, I only dress up and leave my house to visit friends but the rest of the time I'm on my bed with my ipad

Intrusive thoughts can't let me have a single good day