I won’t let others ever make me change my decisions for their comforts. I am me forever. I am Kiki.

Getting bottom surgery isn’t just for my sexual urges and euphoria. It has much more layers to it but that was the mask to pull back my trauma filled eyes to all the dysphoria I have had forever and just never acknowledged because dysphoria.

I had an experience that was sex without penetration or me even ejaculating at all and it totally unlocked my ability to see all that disassociating I’ve done through the years. That was the FIRST time I ever had sex and didn’t disassociate. Ever.

disassociating as a part of it and if I have my penis I will always have the urge to seek penetrative sex. I don’t want that urge anymore to rule my life. I want to actually enjoy my life without thinking when the next time ima have sex is and then when I do not be there for it.

those hormones. I was also presented with the ‘you’re not gonna get all those surgeries are you?’ And at first I responded ‘nah I like my penis. It serves me well and people praise it’ but then I noticed in deep inward looking that I forever will not be able to have sex without

other traumas in life leads me to always tel them ‘nah I am completely comfortable as I am but I am a girl’ and then I continue living and I am not comfortable as I am. I made myself think I was comfortable to make others comfortable about the idea of me being trans. 1 month later I started

tell me ‘you’re perfect this way’ I constantly get praised for the male aspects I have and yet it isn’t the praise I want. When I told the world I was trans I had people saying ‘you aren’t gonna do the hormones are you?’ And my undiagnosed borderline personality disorder ass aswell as many

I’ve had it all made so much sense that I could enjoy sex, my life and be able to throw away all masks and things I reason into existence because of others acceptance. For my whole transition journey from the start till now I have been hesitating to do all the things I always end up doing cuz people

You are so gorgeous hun! Ahhhh love this photo of you and will prolly be used for wallpaper 😘💕

Lmao good girl. You are eating like I told ya to 😂💕