it is genuinely one of those things that i wish i didn't place so much stock into but when looking at the totality of all the circumstances i'm like... damn, there's no silver lining to this at all lmao

i'm sorry to hear that u can relate ;; wish we didn't have to deal with this shit

i'm so sorry that you have to deal with this, spots.

what i'm dealing with isn't as severe, but i know how it feels to have health issues that make sex painful and complicated, and potentially leave you in pain for days or weeks afterwards.

one that isn’t chronically ill with things that make sex and intimacy difficult. one that can be spontaneous and not have to consider the health logistics of every decision. one that can find love in the vessel they’ve been given despite the flaws. i hope i can be all of this one day.

idk. i’ll delete this one day but i just needed to be transparent that im doing poorly and its been so many years in the making and i just want something to get better. my pack keeps me going and im so grateful but dog i wish i could be more for them. i wish i could be a better partner.

all of this on top of the fact that these abscesses and fistulas have made it impossible for me to have gender affirming surgery just cements the fact that i’m constantly at war with a body that already felt foreign to me - i have a hard time feeling love for something that brings me so much pain.

i feel so gross because i can’t make this stop. my body is weak and i will never be able to bottom again. i can’t even let partners get close because i am so afraid of grossing them out and it is making me actually so mentally unwell in ways i can’t seem to shake. i just want to have another body.

in addition, my crohn’s causes arthritis and reflux, so the rest of my body (joints and teeth specifically) is paying the price as well. traveling puts me in substantial pain, and it’s very hard for me to feel comfortable with closeness and intimacy with such an awful thing looming constantly.

i’ve had over a dozen surgeries to combat these complications of my crohn’s, to the point where i will likely never have a normal quality of life when it comes to my lower gastrointestinal tract. i have to wear gauze pads 24/7 and change them multiple times a day. it’s disgusting an embarrassing.

Dear Jikerdor
You could have been hotter if u had been a vers-switch

I don't talk about that online thanks

It's ok, Eco.

Wait... partner?!
But on your twitter u said friend?
Oh.
I see...
U r so cute together!
2 blue dogs are better than 1, Eco the Wusky.

Dear Mr Angrybarks
It would have been even hoter if u had posted pics of both your penis and butthole.
Just a tip.
Sorry for my rudeness, sir

Oooh I forgot to change that my bad lol shh you didn't see anything

HEY EVERYBODY LOOK HERE!
Just kiddin. I might be a jerk,but I wouldn't have done that.
Dear Eco.
If I was heteroromantic/sexual, I wouldn't have been"straight", but a weirdohetero bottom for my big mama girlfriend,which only let me hump her vag if i had been a good boi.
U know, girls runs the world

Dear Fluke Wolf.
I mean it's kinda unfair that your partner is a switch while you are a top.
Like, u can top him, but he can't top you.
Unlike you, he is brave enought to be submissive while u r afraid of losing control.
I will respect you the day u r bottoming for your partner.