You're going to relapse into people pleasing sometimes. It happens, & it's not the end of the world. Just notice; refuse to judge or punish yourself for it; & gently redirect yourself, again & again.

You're a work in progress & this sh*t isn't linear. Grace over guilt.

the first conspiracy.

after 30 everyone will give up on hoping you'll "be" anything, and from there you can just do what you really want

Carl Sagan reciting a poem on relativity:

"There was a young lady named Bright,
Who could travel much faster than light.
She set off one day, in a relative way,
And returned the preceding night."

The women’s title matches have outshone the men’s title matches overall at #Wrestlemania41. We need to start rethinking about making the women’s matches the main event.

This’ll be my safe space for a while. Social media is a poison that has gripped my life for far too long.

I guess in the end, you never really hated our country; you just hated living with me in it.

Despite everything that’s happened, the thing that still makes me smile the most is seeing her happy and fulfilled. Might be the best Valentines joy I can get out of this otherwise normal, stressful day alone.

We don't banish self-cruelty all at once. That's a deeply entrenched pattern. What realistically happens is, we catch it earlier & earlier, & consistently respond to it w/ radical self-acceptance & radical self-compassion.

We reshape our relationship w/ ourselves 1% at a time.

Let the records show that I gave my whole fucking being, heart, and mental health to you when you were at rock bottom. I just hope you’ll remember that whenever you talk about me as if I’m “trauma”, “a burden that needs to be removed to reach your higher sense of self”.

I was gonna meditate this morning, but I decided to sit with my feelings and hold them tight instead. I guess sometimes you need to do that too; let the things that matter to you, matter to you.

It’s hard to love everyone. It’s hard to be kind at all times. It’s hard to be empathetic to those who hurt you. But it’s always worth it in the end for one reason. Your soul remains pure. Don’t forget how easy it is to be angry, bitter and spiteful.

If it’s all over, then at least I sent her off with kindness.

Had some amazing gyros for lunch with a lovely Japanese couple from the Buddhist centre. It’s small joys like these that keep me going.

It’ll all be over soon