Love ya too, you are one of few very close friends who I've known for 5+ years. We may not talk often but when we do we just pick up where we left off like we only spoke the day before and that's what I enjoy about those friendships.

I've just not been very wise with some of my selections recently

I do tressure those who are there for me but I also like to make new connections, sadly they tend to turn out badly. Sharing screenshots with my partner of said friend(s) helped because he's also shown me how to identify possible red flags of people.

So until whenever the time comes I won't be getting art or really being around as much anymore. Take care xx

I have shown chat logs to said friends and they say they've been honest with me by saying that the other friend(s) are the problem and that I should of never Invited them into my life because they did more harm than good.

That shit don't sit right with me, and I've taken advice from some good friends who have simply said "just remove those who have hurt you, put any content featuring them in scraps so it's not in your face, unfollow and block them so they can't pop back into your life and hurt you again"

I can't be there for people as much as I want and all I ask from friends is a little understanding why I can't reach out and chat etc, and once again being dumped on a shelf with "old friends" whilst said friend(s) are playing with their COOL NEW FRIENDS because they're them for them more than I was

Being told they had to "wear a mask" because I couldn't be there for them when irl I have a partner to take care of, a nan who not long had a big operation to remove cancer from her body, dealing with family issues and my own mental health issues.

"Those who spend time with me or occupy my time are the ones I recognise", so tired of everything being a popularity contest within the fandom. These friendships have honestly destroyed me mentally and physically, not fun being told they had to hide things from me because i wasn't around for them.

And unlike the last one I don't really wanna have "I got you art you didn't give me anything" used against me when I never asked for art in the first place they were just being kind.

I'm tired of having to be in the sight of my "friends" to even get their attention or affection.

Connections win every time, and when I do eventually get something it's quickly overlooked by someone else who can access that stuff easily.

I'm also currently not looking to form any new friendships because most if not all over the past 5 years have not quite worked out.

You ain't worth it

Rewarding friends for being there for you when you have alot of other friends there for you feels like spitting in the others face, "here I will reward this one friend because they were there for me more than the rest of you"

I ain't competing for anyone's friendship, you wanna know me then do so

I usually use discord, have a fab time at GenCon <3

Would be awesome <3

I'm just quite socially awkward again, not sure who to trust or approach in game or even in the fandom, some bad experiences with people on both sides of that has honestly made it hard.

Yeah, raiding isn't my thing XD my friend group used to raid but there was too much pressure and stress and I didn't want to end up hating my friends so I dropped from the raid group. It brings the worst of people out tbh.

Youtube can also seriously fuck off, they are killing the platform by giving unskipable adverts OR skipping an ad into an ad only to be in another add 2mins later, like just admit you are dying for fuck sake.