I'm worried sick for all my family back home, may God protect them all

I just hope everything works up. I don't want to fail knowing that I already reach this stage.

Although i do made some friends, and yet some of them already leaving because they already finished their exchange program.

Missing my family, very much. My home country is in shambles, the war keep escalating, my financial is declining. Everything is a struggle.

Honestly, I've been battling this looming fear and anxiousness of how to stay in this country, finishing up my thesis, building a career here. Cause I ain't going back to Indonesia for sure, looking what's going on there. Though everything is still uncertain.

Malem deng bukan hari

Mom, dad, mas, i hope you all well. Please be safe

Something will happened to this country, we are repeating history. And all i wish for everybody are just safety and stable economy. For things to be affordable. For freedom of speech.

I wish we don't repeat the history....

Meanwhile, felt super scared for my family well-being. It's just i worry, how would they survived in this shithole of a country?

I can't mess up, everything has to go right 😣

The thought of going abroad, alone, with all the responsibilities and expectation for finishing a degree

I'm just a ping pong ball basically this past few days. Bouncing on and on between multiple parties.

Not the mention we're heading into 3rd round of wcq. The stake is high