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roy | he/him | problematic | 🔞 | wg kink sometimes
liberate hong kong revolution of our times
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we took your ashes home. i put your urn up to my ear, like i could hear you in there. i haven't cried in a week, but i did tonight. i guess you being gone just hit me again.
November 21, 2025 at 12:08 AM
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zhao should have actually worn this as his wedding outfit
November 17, 2025 at 6:09 AM
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never say never
November 16, 2025 at 11:58 AM
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i had a vision
Zohran style slogan that says "ME FOR NOT KILLING MYSELF"
November 15, 2025 at 6:12 AM
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and now for something different
November 13, 2025 at 1:01 AM
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it's hard to be at home. i don't know what to do. and my mum is so sad about you. i'm sad too, but i don't know how to be sad around her, or deal with her sadness too. she just wants to talk about you. i'm tired of talking and trying to reassure her. i think about you enough on my own. i just want to miss you. there's nothing more to say.
November 13, 2025 at 12:01 AM
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i went out shopping today. i thought i might find a hamster plushie. i thought of buying one before, but never did, because i had you. but i don't have you now, and they didn't have any. i felt okay today, and then i thought of you and nearly cried on the tube. i wanted to. maybe i want the whole world to know how sad i am about you.
November 13, 2025 at 12:01 AM
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super cute!!!
November 11, 2025 at 6:39 PM
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we said goodbye to you today. i handed you over, and then asked for you back, just a little longer. i didn't want to let go. i miss you.
November 11, 2025 at 6:14 PM
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every autumn, we'd buy you a mini pumpkin. it was always bigger than you. i wonder if you liked seeing it? it's still there, for you.
November 9, 2025 at 11:45 AM
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you're the first thing i think about when i wake up, and the last thing when i try to sleep. i haven't thought about bridges at all.
November 9, 2025 at 11:31 AM
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at night, we'd peek into the room before entering, in case you were running, so we didn't spook you. i still have the urge to check before i walk in. i want to hear the wheel. and see you running from afar. it's so quiet.
November 9, 2025 at 11:25 AM
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i got dressed for you. it feels right. i'm just sittin ghere, trying to think of something to say. but i'm just sad. i found my old ring. i bought it because of you. i forgot what it said. now i remember how perfect it was. macaron ring with a blueberry on top and a small plaque that says "Sweet & Tiny". the same ring, next to a flower brooch with a butterfly dangling from it.
November 8, 2025 at 3:35 PM
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120cm x 80cm x 60cm. 10cm lid.
your enclosure is right beside my desk. i walk past and brush my hand along the lid. i thought about covering it, but couldn't. i want to see you there. i built it for you. i want to remember. i look over at the place, the home you should be, and cry. i wish i looked at you more.
November 8, 2025 at 12:35 PM
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yo can i have One Day before we do all that again
November 8, 2025 at 10:45 AM
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thank you, Blueberry.
Thank you, Blueberry. May 2023 - Nov 2025. 🫐
November 8, 2025 at 12:16 AM
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you had fans the world over. so much love for you from so many people. thank you everyone for your kind words. i know she appreciates it. i am glad she brought so much joy. thank you, my friends.
November 7, 2025 at 11:37 PM
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i can't believe you're gone. even though i held you. saw you. said goodbye. it's hard to comprehend what that really means.
November 7, 2025 at 11:02 PM
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knowing i would one day have to say goodbye, still i chose to bring you home. and knowing now what grief i would face, still i'd choose to do it all again. it was worth it, to give you a good life, to call you mine.
November 7, 2025 at 10:48 PM
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you looked as though you were sleeping. funny, when i never got to see you sleep. so peaceful. so soft. so small. i drew you too big here. you were just a little cottonball. but the space you'll leave will be endless. sleep well.
November 7, 2025 at 10:33 PM
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i can't remember when i last saw my mum cry. i remember she was so against you at first. but she fell in love with you, of course. how could she not? thank you for changing her mind.
November 7, 2025 at 10:23 PM
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it's easy to see hamsters as less legitimate pets. i have worried before what people might think, if i cared 'too much'. but the love and the grief i feel is as real as with any other pet.
November 7, 2025 at 7:15 PM
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my little mascot.
kami, puffychi, myself, pasta chyan
November 7, 2025 at 6:51 PM
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my hamster, Blueberry, passed today. i'm not good at drawing hamsters. i don't know how much i believe in life after death, but i know how much i want to see you again. i love you. 🫐
November 7, 2025 at 6:40 PM
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i know this might not hold much weight in the wake of everything i wrote, but... i am okay, right now. feeling better than when i started drawing/writing this out. i will hold my apologies
...but that's not right. i long to be heard. 'grief demands a witness'. i draw. i break. i reach out, in the ways i am able. because despite it all, what the darkness tells me, i am not better off alone. i am not ok. i am trying. i think i need help.
November 5, 2025 at 5:45 PM