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kat
@kattylotl.bsky.social
hi my name is kat
18, trans lesbian
main: @lunalotl.bsky.social
idk, I feel bad venting on public accounts but I just need to feel heard, sorry about this
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
i want to succeed in life and be the best person i can be, things just aren't looking too good and i don't know how to get out of this downward spiral
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
i'm so passionate about creating with other creators and helping make both my and other people's ideas come to life, but it's just not financially safe, especially since i'm fresh out of high school and need that footing before taking risks.
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
im dragging on I think

my main point is that i dunno what to do. i'm too scared to try working another job because i'm genuinely concerned I'll fall into some mental health crisis again, I've been hospitalized once because of it and I don't want something worse to happen.
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
meanwhile, my entire family are working amazing jobs and building connections and are on track for amazing, successful lives. i feel awful whenever i think of them because of the contrast between them and i.
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
my only friends are online, and while that's fine i have nowhere to go irl. i kinda just rot at my computer all day and work on my games.
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
my games don't perform well. i haven't made payout in months.
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
verse commission work didn't play out how I hoped, I barely got any commissions and when I did they were out of my skills. there's one team i tried to join but they aren't hiring right now so i have to wait.
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
i am scared for my future. i cannot do anything for myself and, despite trying to get myself on track, i have gotten nowhere.
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
i quit the job after just one day, which admittedly was stupid and i'm very lucky i was even able to without consequences(?)
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
i started my first ever job a little over a month ago. it was so overwhelming and i kinda just fell into a depressive slump for a while.
October 27, 2025 at 8:12 AM
If you condemn the murder of charlie Kirk, give that same energy towards everyone else. The victims of school shootings, the innocent Palestinian people being slaughtered daily, and so much more.
September 11, 2025 at 4:50 AM
I do, however, feel sympathetic and heartbroken for innocent people who are shot dead inside school, innocent people who're shot dead for no apparent reason, and innocent people who are actively being murdered as part of an ongoing genocide.
September 11, 2025 at 4:50 AM
I do not, and can not feel any sympathy for a fascist who:
- compared abortions to the holocaust
- would force his ten year old daughter to give birth
- constantly spoke negatively about innocent people being harmed or killed
- claimed innocent deaths were a necessary part of gun rights
September 11, 2025 at 4:50 AM
I think that hundereds, thousands, if not tens or hundereds of thousands of innocent people (including children) being murdered without reason is much more of a topic to be angry & feel heartbroken about.
September 11, 2025 at 4:50 AM
just in general i need to be a bit more positive i think, i get the feeling i could actually work on my other issues if i actually felt the need / motivation to
September 5, 2025 at 1:05 AM
tried playing for a few hours, didn't rly have much fun

beautiful artstyle tho
September 5, 2025 at 1:00 AM
ppl don't realize how bad ts is until they go through it themselves bruh
September 3, 2025 at 3:17 AM
Thank you, I appreciate it a ton
August 30, 2025 at 6:39 AM