So I'm trying to hijack my brain by reminding myself that if I don't stick with a mostly regular regime, I'll be in a REAL bad way in 5 or 10 years. So the little pain now is better than bigger pain later. But I have a check-in with my strengths coach in a month or so, and that external stuff helps.

There was absolutely a time I would have tried to push through, but I've been bitten in the ass by that behavior enough to know better (in theory). I can be taught! LOL.

I'm not even like OMG DEATH sick. Just uncomfy and woozy sick, so my goofy ass brain is like "Just push through" but that is NOT the answer, brain!

I swear it's almost compulsion for some people.

BUT I DO NOT LIKE THAT THING WITH GROSS EMOTIONS AND SEX?

Um? Good for you? There are dozens of genres you can read instead???

Apparently it's a lot more common than I realized, and oftentimes publishers will tell the author that's just how things are. It's odd, because I very rarely come across it in my ARC reading, so there is clearly SOMETHING that can be done.

Oh yeah, I don't accept PDFs anymore because the watermark always eats huge amounts of the text when I convert the file. I need to be able to change the font size. I have old eyes!

I don't want to stress the author out, so I'm on the hunt for the PM deal announcement LOL.

For reference, I got my ARC on Netgalley, so this is the epub EVERYONE got. Just... Come on, y'all. I'm seriously considering reaching out to the publicist/editor, because this is ridiculous. I don't know if that's overstepping, but they need to do better.

I can't tell if pubs do this to discourage pirating (LOL) or because they're uploading a PDF to an epub (???), but it's seriously fucked. It's ESPECIALLY fucked that this is a Black author and the pub is potentially shooting early buzz in the foot with this fucked formatting.

I am OBSESSED. Their books are such a joy!