OOOF that's really hard to adjust to, i feel like. im really crossing my fingers that your new one will help you out

honestly, it'll always be a trip trying to figure out how to be objective about the problem. did you go to your therapist/counselor about this or nah?

imagine this but with like 21 other people (the classroom experience)

exactly. i think that's why it's such a motivator to work harder ㅡ at least for me LOL

honestly, just do it scared. even if you feel absolutely incompetent, just do it anyway. because at least you went ahead and made the first steps for you to pick up on later.