Well maybe it's just not for me then

I'm trying to silence my mind not hear it more

Idk. If you mean am I still thinking to myself / having an internal monologue when I meditate ? Then yes but that's usually the opposite of what I want

I never feel any calmer meditating

Fair enough. If it works for you that's great. I kept trying and just couldn't do it

No and you meditate now ?

Ik but Idk what that feels like when I'm making art

If the end result isn't fantastic than i struggle to feel like it's worth. I also don't know what I want to draw

Yep or at least trying to

That's valid tho

but idk sometimes I just feel so bland in comparison

I don't think I'm ugly necessarily but I've never felt confident or attractive. I don't really know how to word but it was just on my mind

Double edged sword situation but at least she's not supporting him