...i'll be right here cheering you on for what comes next.

but...whatever
i know and believe that love has no limits. you can be gay, you can be lesbian, pan or bi. even if no one accepts you, you should still love.
love isn't dangerous, it's what helps people develop and thrive when it gets tough.
change your gender or be the opposite,

i can't tell my friends, family or classmates what my preferences are.
they've made me feel like what i'm doing is horrible.
as if not supporting/respecting me is better

i have to hide who i am. i can't tell my classmates "i am non-binary", because they'll either judge me, not support me, disrespect me, or even worse, be homophobic and hateful towards my decision.

...but if it's religion related

that's a whole new story.
the one i'm going through.

and as soon as the child realizes they won't be accepted, they drift away. they drift away because they're fully aware of what their parent thinks and acknowledges it so much to the point they feel like they aren't free and that what they're doing is "dangerous".

instead of the child just simply wanting to exist and have their own ways of love, the parent reprimands. they say you have to always love the opposite gender.

but, it's not teaching. it's like abusing the child into thinking hiding is the only safe option and it feels like they can't exist

because honestly... they teach children that loving the same gender or a very very different one is bad.

even if i've reached out to a couple of people a few times ...
I will never do that same mistake ever again . It's not worth it , I know nobody would care to listen . I'll never talk to someone about it ever again , even if I want it .
It's bad , but it's okay .
This is me .

my problems are just too brutal . i don't want anyone to know .. to understand ... no matter how much i want to reach out , i just can't do it . i'd rather suffer in silence than to allow somebody to worry because it feels like that's the only right thing to do .

and i have no choice but to go through it all alone whatsoever . but i know i HAVE to be independent because i only have myself . once somebody attempts to understand? it's over . they'll leave me like everyone else . they'll drift away so quickly that it feels like they never came into my life

because sometimes , in the situation , it's only me , i and myself . sometimes , no one is there for me , and i need to learn to love myself because it's only me sometimes and nobody will care . it feels like sometimes , i only have myself ...

and honestly? i know hearing this stings . but it's not even worth it anymore to understand me because i know that this text won't reach a wide audience . but that doesn't matter ... even if i want someone to understand me , i know it'll never happen

GET OUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

This isn't gibberish