Ok, maybe a slight over exaggeration with the "hating myself" comment but there just are things that I am not very fond of in myself, so yeah, point still kinda stands

Lessons learned: don't go all out on the first try, it makes for a miserable night; go gradually, it'll come to ya
God, am I seriously considering this? Like, on the one hand, kinda exciting, on the other, scary as all hell due to health reasons and what not.
But what's few kilos extra, in the end?