Johnson
@justavagrant.bsky.social
Quit tech job 10/'19, on the road since. A lot of fucking around and finding out
The voice is something like “maybe you can do better”. It’s hard to pin where it comes from. Maybe it’s a hyperoptimizing tendency that leaves me perpetually dissatisfied. Maybe it’s a self love “you don’t have to settle” voice, unclear
April 13, 2023 at 7:27 PM
The voice is something like “maybe you can do better”. It’s hard to pin where it comes from. Maybe it’s a hyperoptimizing tendency that leaves me perpetually dissatisfied. Maybe it’s a self love “you don’t have to settle” voice, unclear
And I was ready to do the whole thing with her. So why not now? Like I could pretty likely make it happen, yet I am choosing not to. Part of me is kicking myself for this
April 13, 2023 at 4:54 PM
And I was ready to do the whole thing with her. So why not now? Like I could pretty likely make it happen, yet I am choosing not to. Part of me is kicking myself for this
Realizing that I actively don’t want to be in the business of trying to change people, becoming more secure in myself and realizing I’m more interested in a partner with mutuality
April 13, 2023 at 3:54 PM
Realizing that I actively don’t want to be in the business of trying to change people, becoming more secure in myself and realizing I’m more interested in a partner with mutuality
I am still the owner of doublesaturdays.com
April 13, 2023 at 3:51 PM
I am still the owner of doublesaturdays.com
I realize that i used to gravitate towards “quietish girl that I could show the world and open up”, less drawn to that now
April 13, 2023 at 3:46 PM
I realize that i used to gravitate towards “quietish girl that I could show the world and open up”, less drawn to that now
May your shot be shot sweetly
April 13, 2023 at 3:29 PM
May your shot be shot sweetly
Physically, both IME, but more the latter
Psychologically… maybe also both?
Psychologically… maybe also both?
April 13, 2023 at 2:01 PM
Physically, both IME, but more the latter
Psychologically… maybe also both?
Psychologically… maybe also both?
It’s from a few weeks ago! Was a friend and the girl I was seeing, we sat to meditate for a bit, she mentioned grounding with the earth, and i was like “I’ll show you some grounding” lmao
April 13, 2023 at 1:58 PM
It’s from a few weeks ago! Was a friend and the girl I was seeing, we sat to meditate for a bit, she mentioned grounding with the earth, and i was like “I’ll show you some grounding” lmao
16. Exploring and navigating the dating world after a 7 year relationship (many threads on Twitter)
17. Seeing to what degree i can create community and drop into preexisting ones
18. Trying to love myself and the people around me more fully and unconditionally
17. Seeing to what degree i can create community and drop into preexisting ones
18. Trying to love myself and the people around me more fully and unconditionally
April 13, 2023 at 1:57 PM
16. Exploring and navigating the dating world after a 7 year relationship (many threads on Twitter)
17. Seeing to what degree i can create community and drop into preexisting ones
18. Trying to love myself and the people around me more fully and unconditionally
17. Seeing to what degree i can create community and drop into preexisting ones
18. Trying to love myself and the people around me more fully and unconditionally
More recently
14. I’m in like 10+ crews (per microsolidarity, thanks rich), which have meaningfully helped me feel more connected and less lonely than ever in my life, despite often not being colocated with people close to me
15. Unblocked a ton of love with my min (see Twitter for many threads)
14. I’m in like 10+ crews (per microsolidarity, thanks rich), which have meaningfully helped me feel more connected and less lonely than ever in my life, despite often not being colocated with people close to me
15. Unblocked a ton of love with my min (see Twitter for many threads)
April 13, 2023 at 1:56 PM
More recently
14. I’m in like 10+ crews (per microsolidarity, thanks rich), which have meaningfully helped me feel more connected and less lonely than ever in my life, despite often not being colocated with people close to me
15. Unblocked a ton of love with my min (see Twitter for many threads)
14. I’m in like 10+ crews (per microsolidarity, thanks rich), which have meaningfully helped me feel more connected and less lonely than ever in my life, despite often not being colocated with people close to me
15. Unblocked a ton of love with my min (see Twitter for many threads)
13. “” to build a life together with my (now ex) partner
But anyways quitting and traveling and fucking around and finding out has totally been the best thing I’ve ever done
But anyways quitting and traveling and fucking around and finding out has totally been the best thing I’ve ever done
April 13, 2023 at 1:53 PM
13. “” to build a life together with my (now ex) partner
But anyways quitting and traveling and fucking around and finding out has totally been the best thing I’ve ever done
But anyways quitting and traveling and fucking around and finding out has totally been the best thing I’ve ever done
12. “” to be “better” than others, to be “right” - “look at y’all dummies doing the normal thing I figured out a better way y’all should do it too”, the manifestation of a lack of inner knowing and orientation on external validation instilled throughout my upbringing (school, Chinese culture, etc)
April 13, 2023 at 1:52 PM
12. “” to be “better” than others, to be “right” - “look at y’all dummies doing the normal thing I figured out a better way y’all should do it too”, the manifestation of a lack of inner knowing and orientation on external validation instilled throughout my upbringing (school, Chinese culture, etc)
11. “” out of integrity. When graduating high school I came up with an idea called college hopping (spending a semester at different universities) rather than going normally. I didn’t have the cajones to bet on myself then, and I wanted to prove that I could
April 13, 2023 at 1:50 PM
11. “” out of integrity. When graduating high school I came up with an idea called college hopping (spending a semester at different universities) rather than going normally. I didn’t have the cajones to bet on myself then, and I wanted to prove that I could
8. I quit partially because I was dissatisfied with my social life in LA
9. “” because i was reacting to excessive responsibility i felt to my mom
10. “” because travel was the first thing I ever actively liked and subconsciously I knew that I wanted to develop a sense of what I want/like/care about
9. “” because i was reacting to excessive responsibility i felt to my mom
10. “” because travel was the first thing I ever actively liked and subconsciously I knew that I wanted to develop a sense of what I want/like/care about
April 13, 2023 at 1:47 PM
8. I quit partially because I was dissatisfied with my social life in LA
9. “” because i was reacting to excessive responsibility i felt to my mom
10. “” because travel was the first thing I ever actively liked and subconsciously I knew that I wanted to develop a sense of what I want/like/care about
9. “” because i was reacting to excessive responsibility i felt to my mom
10. “” because travel was the first thing I ever actively liked and subconsciously I knew that I wanted to develop a sense of what I want/like/care about
4. Ive always been the main person in my groups of friends bringing people together
5. I feel most at home living with friends and people I care about
6. Ive been to 50+ countries
7. Ive tasted a lot of lives for myself (I have a Twitter thread on this - is linking on bsky heathen behavior)
5. I feel most at home living with friends and people I care about
6. Ive been to 50+ countries
7. Ive tasted a lot of lives for myself (I have a Twitter thread on this - is linking on bsky heathen behavior)
April 13, 2023 at 1:45 PM
4. Ive always been the main person in my groups of friends bringing people together
5. I feel most at home living with friends and people I care about
6. Ive been to 50+ countries
7. Ive tasted a lot of lives for myself (I have a Twitter thread on this - is linking on bsky heathen behavior)
5. I feel most at home living with friends and people I care about
6. Ive been to 50+ countries
7. Ive tasted a lot of lives for myself (I have a Twitter thread on this - is linking on bsky heathen behavior)
April 13, 2023 at 1:40 PM