All this to say- it’s something I need to work on. In taking a leave of absence from my job to address autistic burnout and further unmask I’ve found I cannot suppress my RSD. However, my whole life I’d let it build up into shame and become a MDD episode. Recognizing it is the first step to healing🩵

I love hosting people so much, I love converting my small kitchen table into a bigger one for us to work or play a game at. I love making little beverages and showing my dog to them. I like how I curated it and I want to spend time there and when others don’t want to (or even can’t) it’s a huge blow

Today I had an intense wave of it that has completely disrupted my morning around hosting people in my space. Rationally, I know it’s RSD. I don’t blame the person at all, it came from a place of expressing their needs but I’ve just been so self conscious of people not wanting to be in my space.

I’m not always good at recognizing that it is RSD unless it’s obvious or I sit in my feelings. Lately I’ve been feeling it a lot around even the slightest rejection or dismissal of the aspects of my life I’m ashamed/ self conscious of.

Protect your queer BIPOC friends 365 but especially this month as bigots clearly feel safe and emboldened. Be loudly queer and allies be loudly supportive. I hope EVERYONE is brought to justice and held accountable. Justice for Jonathan Joss (3/3)

This is a sad note here that a fatal hate crime was committed on the first day of Pride Month against a Native man yesterday after multiple committed hate crimes against him and his husband (2/3)