LOL

he doesn't hate the idea of using it! I will consider this a win!

anyways. stream i think about it all the time by charli xcx on your preferred music streaming service.

but what's even scarier is what comes after the birth!!!!! I'm too selfish to be a mother i think!!!!! I dont ever wanna give a child a resentful, selfish mother!!!!!!!!!!! plus I'd likely be passing down all my mental illnesses to the baby??????? how horrible!!!!!!!!

but birth is so scary and I hate pain so much!!!!!!!!!!! i always say if I could go through the 9 months of pregnancy, go to sleep at the end of it, and wake up with the baby next to me, I'd have so many kids. if birth was easy I'd have like 4 kids at least.

don't even get me started on the BIRTH. I fear birth so much but I feel like I'd make SUCH a cute pregnant woman like?????? I'd be wearing crop tops and I'd be GLOWING

I say I'm like 70/30 on not wanting kids but the truth is i crave nothing more than to be a mother but thinking about everything that goes into having a child gives me so much anxiety like I know I'm gonna mess up sometimes and I'll always feel like a failure of a mother cause I'm not perfect

how have I never connected this before

it is so unusable!!!!