hello 💛

then i saw the “i saw the tv glow and …” tik tok trend and half of them were so dumb other than the trans ones like u are not the target audience u cishets go away

and by “cure me” i mean in terms of the mental illnesses i have that make me insufferable

i want to look like a man that looks like a girl but not a girl that looks like a girl like does anyone else understand

i feel this sensation in from the back of my skull to my feet as if the earth is pulling me towards its center, i drag my body up and outward to avoid it. i am so tired of constantly being strained. but idk whats pulling me back. nothing has changed.

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u get me

i dont have experience in that but its not hard to have empathy for people that do, yknow? like its so odd seeing people only have empathy for things theyve personally gone thru and nothing else. like does it have to take u going thru it to understand?

i know her very well to know shes being very nonchalant abt it and idk if im describing the situation well but i pulled her aside yesterday and told her it wasnt as funny as she thought it was and she just did not care

do you mind.

why i lowkey start writing a fanfic abt myself anyways yes zoom to read my bad i said i was bad at this . Whatever.

like literally pockets of fluid that feel like a waterbed. ON MY SCALP. it scares me and my WBC is always high. fibro doesnt cause that bc its not an inflammatory disease. so im like ??????? what is it