I just realized that when Jerry died and when Brent died and then Vince I was going to say there was no Internet, but I know that’s not sure there was an Internet. I just wasn’t on it then And I felt a whole hell less alone than I do now, surrounded by millions people.

And I actually got back to my house only 15 minutes after I usually take my going to bed meds so that schedule isn’t gonna get messed up except I took my 9 o’clock edible at 7:15 instead of at 9 o’clock, but that’s OK because who cares? I ain’t got no place now.I’ll take another one at 9…

I shouldn’t have gone but I guess making the effort counts.

So I went down the driveway where there was less sound and more space. For 25 seconds.
I made it through 1/2 the song & somebody walked right through me from behind

Oddly, Lower Saddle River is upstream from Upper Saddle River.

One of the people I didn’t dump out of my life after the thing happened in 2014 had to deal Jerry Garcia dying on his birthday. It’s rough. In my extended family. It’s normal but that’s my family. One of us always dies on somebody else’s birthday.

Thank you

Beautiful.
I haven’t seen any of the former Grateful Dead since Furthur played the Sweetwater. 2012?Because of this… Thing that happened in 2014. I never get to say goodbye. Gonna try to go among people tonight…

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It was hard. I should have gone to the Haight yesterday but the Thing in my head wouldn’t let me. There’s a thing tonight up the street & i’m pretty sure I can drive from there to here. I won’t walk unlit paths in the dark.