POV: youre stalking a black trans subreddit so you can try and compliment some bad bitches with low self esteem

I made a post in the black trans people sub wishing people well during the holidays and now I got default pfp accounts with hidden post history hitting me with the "I get lonely too Baby Girl 🥺"

7/ like some of it truly must have been experimentation and expression, but I wonder how much of that experience drew from simply seeing myself in those girls and simply wanting permission to be a girl

6/ Hindsight is 20-20, but it's so odd seeing stuff like this.

You get a Tumblr because your friend/future gf has one and use it to post fandom shit

You end up stumbling onto random black trans women musicians on the site and immediately start going "Something feels weird inside me"

5/ like I get it, everyone's gender journey is different. But I was definitely sitting there like "I don't know what I am. 🥺 I just want to be free 🥺 maybe experiment with expression 🥺😳 maybe start feminizing hormones as a treat 🥺👉🏽👈🏽"
It was really hard back then, I think

4/ Just more transgender things.

For someone who was just a "nonchalant enby" or whatever, I was definitely posting semi frequently shit that freshly cracked egg would be doom-posting on reddit seeking a push from girlies who already transitioned

3/ I self i-d'd as just some nebulous nonbinary identity for a while it seems, but there were clear femme seeds that were already planted years ago that I was just bouncing off of in denial I guess?

Girl what do you mean "How nice it would be to be a pretty girl 🥺"
SHUT UUUUP

2/ for a while I've said that I really considered myself more a woman since maybe 2019, and I started my medical transition in 2020.
Saw this diary of mine from 2016 that certainly affirms that is not fuckin true lmao

I just wanna tell the story of me and the little troublemaker I have on my phone