Joel (he/him/friend)
@joelpcuthbert.bsky.social
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just another of g-d's whoopsidaisies
'Vocatus atque non vocatus, Deus aderit'
just another of g-d's whoopsidaisies
'Vocatus atque non vocatus, Deus aderit'
Reading about meditation (cause I have no time to actually meditate) and in a chapter called "Sifted by Boredom" a paragraph concludes with:
"(Let) certain fields of the mind lie fallow, fields manured with boredom."
I love monkish books on stillness.
"(Let) certain fields of the mind lie fallow, fields manured with boredom."
I love monkish books on stillness.
November 5, 2025 at 8:50 PM
Reading about meditation (cause I have no time to actually meditate) and in a chapter called "Sifted by Boredom" a paragraph concludes with:
"(Let) certain fields of the mind lie fallow, fields manured with boredom."
I love monkish books on stillness.
"(Let) certain fields of the mind lie fallow, fields manured with boredom."
I love monkish books on stillness.
I just "exported" my "library" of saved tracks/albums from Tidal to an Excel sheet... and it comes out to just over 15,000 entries.
Am I the problem?
Am I the problem?
October 28, 2025 at 9:27 PM
I just "exported" my "library" of saved tracks/albums from Tidal to an Excel sheet... and it comes out to just over 15,000 entries.
Am I the problem?
Am I the problem?
Trying to find and foster a meditation practice while balancing work/life/school/reality can feel impossible.
"The essential, that which is given to us in the metaphorical fire of this quiet oneness, never imposes itself on us, while the unessential is constantly imposing itself on us." J. Finlay
"The essential, that which is given to us in the metaphorical fire of this quiet oneness, never imposes itself on us, while the unessential is constantly imposing itself on us." J. Finlay
October 25, 2025 at 1:19 PM
Trying to find and foster a meditation practice while balancing work/life/school/reality can feel impossible.
"The essential, that which is given to us in the metaphorical fire of this quiet oneness, never imposes itself on us, while the unessential is constantly imposing itself on us." J. Finlay
"The essential, that which is given to us in the metaphorical fire of this quiet oneness, never imposes itself on us, while the unessential is constantly imposing itself on us." J. Finlay
Someone at my co-working space just described me as "the most emotionally aware man I've ever met".
Is this a blessing, or is this a curse?
Should I add it to my dating profile?
Y/N?
Is this a blessing, or is this a curse?
Should I add it to my dating profile?
Y/N?
October 14, 2025 at 7:01 PM
Someone at my co-working space just described me as "the most emotionally aware man I've ever met".
Is this a blessing, or is this a curse?
Should I add it to my dating profile?
Y/N?
Is this a blessing, or is this a curse?
Should I add it to my dating profile?
Y/N?
Lately I've been hit with a series of bizarre Tai-Chi ads on YouTube? A ludicrously fit fellow telling me about how he got so fit. Except in small writing at the bottom the video confesses that it is Ai-Generated.
You're telling me "unrealistic" body standards are now actually, entirely, not-real.
You're telling me "unrealistic" body standards are now actually, entirely, not-real.
October 5, 2025 at 6:36 PM
Lately I've been hit with a series of bizarre Tai-Chi ads on YouTube? A ludicrously fit fellow telling me about how he got so fit. Except in small writing at the bottom the video confesses that it is Ai-Generated.
You're telling me "unrealistic" body standards are now actually, entirely, not-real.
You're telling me "unrealistic" body standards are now actually, entirely, not-real.
Scribbled this down the other day:
On the porch, slow sunny fall morning, quiet jazz, time could, if it would be so kind, pause here for a brief forever 1049
On the porch, slow sunny fall morning, quiet jazz, time could, if it would be so kind, pause here for a brief forever 1049
September 18, 2025 at 10:40 PM
Scribbled this down the other day:
On the porch, slow sunny fall morning, quiet jazz, time could, if it would be so kind, pause here for a brief forever 1049
On the porch, slow sunny fall morning, quiet jazz, time could, if it would be so kind, pause here for a brief forever 1049
"It is an old ironic habit of human beings to run faster when we have lost our way." R. May
September 3, 2025 at 4:01 AM
"It is an old ironic habit of human beings to run faster when we have lost our way." R. May
Every year I forget, though July can be cruel with its continuous unforgiving heat, August can be kind, the breeze and still the sun, spinning out the summer days.
August 26, 2025 at 2:30 PM
Every year I forget, though July can be cruel with its continuous unforgiving heat, August can be kind, the breeze and still the sun, spinning out the summer days.
One of the ways I can tell movies and tv™️ aren't real is that there are never scenes where characters are just sweating for no reason. Life (as of late) seems to mostly involve just sweating. For no reason.
Let's see more stories about that.
Or let's cool it around here. With the sweating.
Let's see more stories about that.
Or let's cool it around here. With the sweating.
August 13, 2025 at 9:44 PM
One of the ways I can tell movies and tv™️ aren't real is that there are never scenes where characters are just sweating for no reason. Life (as of late) seems to mostly involve just sweating. For no reason.
Let's see more stories about that.
Or let's cool it around here. With the sweating.
Let's see more stories about that.
Or let's cool it around here. With the sweating.
Does anyone else ever get the urge to check into a hotel just for a nice night? Nothing sketchy. Just a cable TV movie and mediocre breakfast buffet in the morning.
August 7, 2025 at 8:54 PM
Does anyone else ever get the urge to check into a hotel just for a nice night? Nothing sketchy. Just a cable TV movie and mediocre breakfast buffet in the morning.
I could of sworn there were Ads in my dreams last night... must I now pay for a premium uninterrupted sleep experience?
Or is life so bombarded by them that my sillie subconscious replicates them even while I drift?
Oh my.
Or is life so bombarded by them that my sillie subconscious replicates them even while I drift?
Oh my.
July 27, 2025 at 12:25 PM
I could of sworn there were Ads in my dreams last night... must I now pay for a premium uninterrupted sleep experience?
Or is life so bombarded by them that my sillie subconscious replicates them even while I drift?
Oh my.
Or is life so bombarded by them that my sillie subconscious replicates them even while I drift?
Oh my.
My lord, the sweetness of a cool summer's day. Almost makes that other, harsh unbearable, bearable.
Either way, it's quite kind today.
Either way, it's quite kind today.
July 21, 2025 at 3:19 PM
My lord, the sweetness of a cool summer's day. Almost makes that other, harsh unbearable, bearable.
Either way, it's quite kind today.
Either way, it's quite kind today.
I've consistently, as of late, spotted a beautiful bird, mid-flight, immediately drop a huge shit. Wonders never cease.
June 17, 2025 at 3:43 PM
I've consistently, as of late, spotted a beautiful bird, mid-flight, immediately drop a huge shit. Wonders never cease.
I just tried to swipe-type "Google" but my phone autocorrected it to "giggle".
Maybe you're right. Maybe that's what I really need.
Maybe you're right. Maybe that's what I really need.
June 17, 2025 at 3:41 AM
I just tried to swipe-type "Google" but my phone autocorrected it to "giggle".
Maybe you're right. Maybe that's what I really need.
Maybe you're right. Maybe that's what I really need.
The internet contains a surprising repertoire of unhappiness. And though it all appears to be on offer for free it takes its toll. It takes its toll on me.
May 23, 2025 at 2:46 PM
The internet contains a surprising repertoire of unhappiness. And though it all appears to be on offer for free it takes its toll. It takes its toll on me.
"I am pleasantly located in the deep sea, but love will row you out, if her hands are strong, and don’t wait till I land, for I’m going ashore on the other side." Emily Dickinson
May 11, 2025 at 4:19 PM
"I am pleasantly located in the deep sea, but love will row you out, if her hands are strong, and don’t wait till I land, for I’m going ashore on the other side." Emily Dickinson
I'm sure this already exists, but I'd like to create a personalized bot that just responds to every post with "Hahaha True☝️"
May 7, 2025 at 11:20 PM
I'm sure this already exists, but I'd like to create a personalized bot that just responds to every post with "Hahaha True☝️"
I had nothing to do today so I did that
May 7, 2025 at 6:00 PM
I had nothing to do today so I did that
"If the circumstance cannot change, the person must."
Kay Redfield Jamison - Healing the Unquiet Mind (reflecting on the philosophy of Viktor Frankl)
Kay Redfield Jamison - Healing the Unquiet Mind (reflecting on the philosophy of Viktor Frankl)
April 23, 2025 at 10:23 PM
"If the circumstance cannot change, the person must."
Kay Redfield Jamison - Healing the Unquiet Mind (reflecting on the philosophy of Viktor Frankl)
Kay Redfield Jamison - Healing the Unquiet Mind (reflecting on the philosophy of Viktor Frankl)
How come they don't tell you that Jane Austen remained single until her untimely death?
The one writing these stories, and the one living them are perhaps two different people entirely.
Then again, love is often most sweet in imagination.
Commitment, long-suffering, grief are a difficult sell.
The one writing these stories, and the one living them are perhaps two different people entirely.
Then again, love is often most sweet in imagination.
Commitment, long-suffering, grief are a difficult sell.
April 23, 2025 at 5:22 PM
How come they don't tell you that Jane Austen remained single until her untimely death?
The one writing these stories, and the one living them are perhaps two different people entirely.
Then again, love is often most sweet in imagination.
Commitment, long-suffering, grief are a difficult sell.
The one writing these stories, and the one living them are perhaps two different people entirely.
Then again, love is often most sweet in imagination.
Commitment, long-suffering, grief are a difficult sell.
You know you're doing it right when your times of prayerful meditation (variations on the same theme) give way to tumbling into a nap.
There is a spirit of restoration, which perhaps knows that your deepest need is rest, even when unconsciously ignore it.
It insists.
There is a spirit of restoration, which perhaps knows that your deepest need is rest, even when unconsciously ignore it.
It insists.
April 21, 2025 at 7:36 PM
You know you're doing it right when your times of prayerful meditation (variations on the same theme) give way to tumbling into a nap.
There is a spirit of restoration, which perhaps knows that your deepest need is rest, even when unconsciously ignore it.
It insists.
There is a spirit of restoration, which perhaps knows that your deepest need is rest, even when unconsciously ignore it.
It insists.
Strange how these devices take us from the present and project us (like astral travelers) into a million stories with mixed intentions.
Justice and capitalism competing for my attention, my wallet, my soul.
So I'll reflect on it here?
"And you expect me to believe, that any of this is real?"
Justice and capitalism competing for my attention, my wallet, my soul.
So I'll reflect on it here?
"And you expect me to believe, that any of this is real?"
April 21, 2025 at 3:19 PM
Strange how these devices take us from the present and project us (like astral travelers) into a million stories with mixed intentions.
Justice and capitalism competing for my attention, my wallet, my soul.
So I'll reflect on it here?
"And you expect me to believe, that any of this is real?"
Justice and capitalism competing for my attention, my wallet, my soul.
So I'll reflect on it here?
"And you expect me to believe, that any of this is real?"
Back on instantgram. Prolly a bad choice, but my first thoughts are...
The internet is so crowded.
And it makes my head feel quite cluttered too.
I'm going to listen to slow jazz and do the dishes now.
The internet is so crowded.
And it makes my head feel quite cluttered too.
I'm going to listen to slow jazz and do the dishes now.
April 21, 2025 at 3:16 PM
Back on instantgram. Prolly a bad choice, but my first thoughts are...
The internet is so crowded.
And it makes my head feel quite cluttered too.
I'm going to listen to slow jazz and do the dishes now.
The internet is so crowded.
And it makes my head feel quite cluttered too.
I'm going to listen to slow jazz and do the dishes now.
"Accurate scholarship can
Unearth the whole offence
From Luther until now
That has driven a culture mad,
Find what occurred at Linz,
What huge imago made
A psychopathic god:
I and the public know
What all schoolchildren learn,
Those to whom evil is done
Do evil in return." W.H. Auden
Unearth the whole offence
From Luther until now
That has driven a culture mad,
Find what occurred at Linz,
What huge imago made
A psychopathic god:
I and the public know
What all schoolchildren learn,
Those to whom evil is done
Do evil in return." W.H. Auden
April 20, 2025 at 3:46 PM
"Accurate scholarship can
Unearth the whole offence
From Luther until now
That has driven a culture mad,
Find what occurred at Linz,
What huge imago made
A psychopathic god:
I and the public know
What all schoolchildren learn,
Those to whom evil is done
Do evil in return." W.H. Auden
Unearth the whole offence
From Luther until now
That has driven a culture mad,
Find what occurred at Linz,
What huge imago made
A psychopathic god:
I and the public know
What all schoolchildren learn,
Those to whom evil is done
Do evil in return." W.H. Auden
"Zen Buddhists have rightly observed that 'to love without knowing how to love wounds the person we love.'"
www.themarginalian.org/2021/06/18/s...
www.themarginalian.org/2021/06/18/s...
Sylvia Plath and the Loneliness of Love
“Life is loneliness… Yes, there is joy, fulfillment and companionship — but the loneliness of the soul, in its appalling self-consciousness, is horrible and overpowering.”
www.themarginalian.org
April 20, 2025 at 2:50 PM
"Zen Buddhists have rightly observed that 'to love without knowing how to love wounds the person we love.'"
www.themarginalian.org/2021/06/18/s...
www.themarginalian.org/2021/06/18/s...