When’s it gonna ring?

Annabelle is there with them 🥰

* I couldn't tell you the number of times I've had someone tell me how "remarkably self-aware" I am, but the irony never fails to amuse me.

** A whole other cesspool of rage which (to paraphrase Martin) I can’t begin to put into words yet.

However, if it turns out they weren't affected by the DC BS and they just ghosted me in favour of someone else, I'll honestly be disappointed.

I'd expect more from a department structured around access, community, and belonging.

It's entirely possible they've gone radio silent because they're trying to figure out what to do about this new obstacle, in which case I am - and should be - the least of their concerns.

I keep myself from spinning out by evaluating the situation with reason and grace*, and the thing is there's a strong possibility that the EOs issued early last week** directly impacted the department the position was housed in.

Not knowing gets my self-defeatist brain roiling though, and that bitch can be a Problem to shut down.

If I wasn't chosen, fair enough. I'd figuratively shake the victor's hand, wish them well, and move on. I don't necessarily need to know why, either. I'm seasoned enough to recognize when I've likely come up against someone with an edge, and that's ok. I'm a big girl.

That was last week. I've heard nothing. And this makes me sad for a number of reasons, not the least of which is the aforementioned life-changing pay rise bit.

You see, I hate living in limbo.

I just watched this movie for the first time in more than 30 years the other night 🤣