being a bottom is extremely boring and so competitive. the only thing i have in my favor which is also going against me 98% is being trans. it offsets me just enough but it comes with way more difficulty than just being a cis bottom.

i hate it here

still convinced if i was born with a dick, i would be a vers top- verging on just a top bc anal is too much prep and if i have the good feel on penis i wouldn't care for anything else. and also i would get all the sex i want.

tbh just reading this post all i can think of is "i have to act this way or i'll put a gun in my mouth so i can actually just sleep forever" bc any person-facing job is Hell and to deal w people, i'd need to be a different person myself.

"this could be you if you got sleep"