you're very kind thank you <3 haha i'm probably just in a spiral right now and i'm definitely gonna read these later on & cringe, but i appreciate everything you just said and i'm sorry to hear you're struggling too, it really is no fun :(

but i also can't help but feel like i don't deserve it. i feel like i don't deserve the people around me who do actually care
at this point i'd say i feel guilt more than anything
i'm always reminiscing about the girl i used to be & who i was before this fuckass disorder took over my life

my biggest fear has always been being left alone, & that's all this year has been. i push people away when i'm hurting mentally or i feel unwanted, and i expect them to come chasing after me
i'm beyond grateful for the people who do, because it's exactly what i want,

for me, bpd means that i'm either at my highest high or my lowest low
i thought i had hit rock bottom a longggg time ago, turns out that rock bottom has a basement
i've been in probably the lowest point in my life since around this time last year & i so badly wanna pull myself out of it, but i can't

uh ohhh does this mean i'm also gonna ugly cry (i'm also on my period and i also teared up quite a lot watching you play fireside feelings soo)

Yes sir 🫡

happy easter

this just reminded me that i'm wearing socks 😭