Being a part of some other social media platform groups and reading other people's stories, though for me it feels like a low level of comparison, I think it's what some would call church trauma. It difficult to even think about going back into a church and trusting people.

Recently I have been struggling with loneliness. I haven't tried to find another church and not sure if I want to. There is an inclusive church that a buddy of mine goes to and I've been there. But it's such a small group of people it's hard to hang back and just observe people.

Every Sunday I dreaded going there because I didn't feel like it was a place for me anymore. There was a brief time of relief for not having to go there every Sunday then every other week. It's kind of sad how even though I was lingering on the edge of that circle, it was my community.

I had been wanting to leave for a while but I have this fear of disappointing people. After a few days he messaged me about my decision. I told him I was burnt out. The past couple years I just kind of showed up late and wouldn't interact with anyone. I don't even think anyone realizes I've left.

This conversation of two very nonconfrontational people about whether or not it was something I was going to continue doing. He gave me some time to think about it. I wanted right then and there to say that I was done. The pastor in a few sermons kind of was outspoken against trans people.

Trying to figure out this platform and going through who I follow on the other place I found a comedian from that list
bsky.app/profile/kurt...