But a lot of that peace is missing right now and until I can do it without "faking until I make it" zombie mode, I'm taking a break.

Much Love <3

- Jess (8/8)

Because this community, this space is magical with each of you. I do this because I enjoy seeing you all, conversing about games, and just having our safe space to be ourselves. One of the few spaces that I truly have peace. (7/8)

So I will be on hiatus til January 2026, maybe longer. But it will be until my mental health is in a better state. I will miss streaming and have so much I want to bring to 2026 and getting closer to 750 Realm Walkers and then work towards 1k Realm Walkers if possible. (6/8)

I also have been struggling with work for my small business and reworking things to improve client services. Something I enjoy but also put so much on myself to do. (5/8)

This has affected many friendships and my own mental health, a lot I internalize as I have to work on or am at fault even if I’m not. It has gotten so bad, I feel more like a zombie than myself. (4/8)

Prior to my birthday, I had lost a friend I had thought I had known. Some parts of the event triggered a past trauma. A past trauma I avoid talking about due to how it violated my trust in people I called friends. Some that felt like family. (3/8)

For the explained version, I will do my best to keep this thread short. (2/8)

What are you thankful for this month? Drop one thing in the replies — let’s spread that November gratitude ✨ #ThankfulNovember

3️⃣ And of course, Mr. Li — thank you for being my partner in chaos, joy, and everything in between. Your love keeps the Realm Walkers ship steady. 💛 #GratefulPartner

2️⃣ Massive thank‑you to @ashtral-asher.vtubers.social , @nemunekostudio.bsky.social & @slepobepo.vtubers.social for all the art magic behind the scenes. Your handiwork makes the Realm Walkers universe feel alive. #ArtSupporters

1️⃣ Big shout to @theshortnord.bsky.social — the streaming mentor who helped this Vtuber level up moderator‑mode instead of chaos‑mode. You’re the real MVP. #StreamerLife