But yeah I've been working for quite a good time now. Just hoping things will get better.

But ultimately I chose to leave don't know if they even wanted me around or not. But I keep feeling off about it maybe it's just I miss things but again idk if they even well care? I dunno just venting that out but let's get back to the better topic.

Maybe I just try to hard with things. But imma keep trying to help when I'm needed maybe one day I'll finally leave the impact on the world I wanted to. But until that happens I'm just floating around helping others best I can.

So with that said i won't say any of the other project plans as that would be spoiling the fun and surprise.

But on a side note I will be getting some things on the side done soon as well. To give you a hint we will be doing streams but also recordings as the streams happen cause I wanna start reviewing games I think it be a fun way of making myself productive along side the streaming when I do that.

Anyways you all have a good night and I just wanted to vent that out and don't overthink it everyone I just needed to say it cause being honest with ones self is a good thing and I want that. Good night everyone <3

Lastly I feel kinda stuck listening cause I kinda feel like I was forced to stop interacting...I just hope you don't think I was meaning anything bad cause it's wasn't fully my choice but at the same time it was if that makes sense?

So to end this thread off I just wanna say this to the person. I miss talking to you I hope your doing well and things have been doing well. I do care about alot maybe alot more than I should. My emotions always get me in trouble but I do hope your doing well. Just miss talking is all.

All I know is I miss talking to them and I'm posting this cause I want honesty with myself and how I feel and maybe posting this before I go right back to bed will help me sorta understand it all better.

But...I do miss someone it's kinda weird I don't understand it right now I always have issues with that. All I know is I didn't wanna not stop being near but I get told I need to stay away or else they would leave me. So I get stuck in the middle and get forced to listen to them.

So i think it's best it stays that way you know? As much of a caring heart i have i know to spot things and notice small things. So ultimately...i just want what is best for them. So i will stay away for their sake not mine. So if you see this i wish you the best always and forever even if I'm gone.

In a friendly way but it was more or less so i wasn't an issue or made things worse. I'm simply moving forward. I wish them the best and wish them such a wonderful life. But I'm listening to advice I was given to stay away cause ultimately they were doing way better without me.

Imma stay true to myself but also make sure i make a lasting impact for the better as i don't want my mark on the world to be for the negative. I love you all with all my heart and i will show the world i mean my words. It may take a while to balance things out but it will be worth the hard work <3

I will stand by the fact that anything given will be thanked for and appreciated. But what matters most is the people around me and they always will matter more. Now lastly i will only make things on stuff i enjoy. Even if it's reviewing or simply talking about things i like and love.

Those things will be making memories with the people that stuck around me through it all. I wanna show what I care about (That is okay with it that I'm not gonna record someone just for content that is wrong). Cause friends and others matter more than some videos.