Jenn with the TBI
@jennholton.bsky.social
perpetual art project procrastinator
with post-concussion syndrome
she/her
with post-concussion syndrome
she/her
My point is if I had to take a cognitive test again I’d probably do worse on it this time. I’m for sure not remembering five words told to me at the start of the test. I can’t remember much of mine. The whole thing was a long blur. I do recall there was a math portion.
November 18, 2025 at 4:39 AM
My point is if I had to take a cognitive test again I’d probably do worse on it this time. I’m for sure not remembering five words told to me at the start of the test. I can’t remember much of mine. The whole thing was a long blur. I do recall there was a math portion.
I tend not to post very often on social media mainly because of how difficult it is to write anything. Every time I think I have it explained I read what I wrote and then I have to start over because it doesn’t make sense.
November 18, 2025 at 4:39 AM
I tend not to post very often on social media mainly because of how difficult it is to write anything. Every time I think I have it explained I read what I wrote and then I have to start over because it doesn’t make sense.
I do know I’m deteriorating mentally—ten years ago before my concussion I would have memorized the script. Now I can barely string a sentence together if I’m speaking and memorization is a distant memory.
July 3, 2025 at 9:01 PM
I do know I’m deteriorating mentally—ten years ago before my concussion I would have memorized the script. Now I can barely string a sentence together if I’m speaking and memorization is a distant memory.
I know I could have followed a script, but it’s Ted Cruz. He’s the ultimate bootlicker. Nothing I could ever say would get through to him. I feel like a coward.
July 3, 2025 at 9:01 PM
I know I could have followed a script, but it’s Ted Cruz. He’s the ultimate bootlicker. Nothing I could ever say would get through to him. I feel like a coward.
I’m not good with talking, so I emailed my representative when the bill was first in the House. I lost all steam when it passed regardless. There’s no way our senators would have empathy for a disabled Texan who didn’t vote for them and I didn’t call.
July 3, 2025 at 9:01 PM
I’m not good with talking, so I emailed my representative when the bill was first in the House. I lost all steam when it passed regardless. There’s no way our senators would have empathy for a disabled Texan who didn’t vote for them and I didn’t call.
I’ve had it in the back of my mind since November that something like gutting Medicaid would happen and I kept getting told “that won’t happen” and not to worry about it.
July 3, 2025 at 9:01 PM
I’ve had it in the back of my mind since November that something like gutting Medicaid would happen and I kept getting told “that won’t happen” and not to worry about it.
Medicaid is how I manage my mental health and without it I’m fucking screwed. I go to weekly therapy. I can’t afford that without Medicaid.
July 3, 2025 at 9:01 PM
Medicaid is how I manage my mental health and without it I’m fucking screwed. I go to weekly therapy. I can’t afford that without Medicaid.
And who’s to say they won’t just kick me off of SSI? I’ve been disabled since 2015. I haven’t seen a doctor since they ran out of treatment ideas for me after the Indomethacin debacle.
July 3, 2025 at 9:01 PM
And who’s to say they won’t just kick me off of SSI? I’ve been disabled since 2015. I haven’t seen a doctor since they ran out of treatment ideas for me after the Indomethacin debacle.
I just want this medication to work. This is a deep depressive episode—nothing I used to love interests me. There are movies coming out soon that I’d normally be excited about, but I can’t feel anything. I don’t even care about old favorites.
July 3, 2025 at 7:46 PM
I just want this medication to work. This is a deep depressive episode—nothing I used to love interests me. There are movies coming out soon that I’d normally be excited about, but I can’t feel anything. I don’t even care about old favorites.
I went to the grocery store yesterday and got some snacks that should help me get those 350 calories. I just need to actually eat breakfast every morning. Meal replacement shakes are great but they’re only 180 calories.
July 3, 2025 at 7:46 PM
I went to the grocery store yesterday and got some snacks that should help me get those 350 calories. I just need to actually eat breakfast every morning. Meal replacement shakes are great but they’re only 180 calories.
I think I have some form of ARFID. I don’t get hungry and have no appetite—I sometimes forget to eat at all and when I do eat, I am physically disturbed by the way food feels in my mouth. Swallowing chewed up food is a repulsive sensation.
July 3, 2025 at 7:46 PM
I think I have some form of ARFID. I don’t get hungry and have no appetite—I sometimes forget to eat at all and when I do eat, I am physically disturbed by the way food feels in my mouth. Swallowing chewed up food is a repulsive sensation.
I was riding passenger in the car at the drive-thru when I went to pick up my prescription and I don’t think the pharmacist could hear me well enough, so I just didn’t say anything.
I hate that I’m like this.
I hate that I’m like this.
June 20, 2025 at 5:02 PM
I was riding passenger in the car at the drive-thru when I went to pick up my prescription and I don’t think the pharmacist could hear me well enough, so I just didn’t say anything.
I hate that I’m like this.
I hate that I’m like this.
I can’t think enough to write. I can’t order my thoughts. If someone is talking to me it’s even more difficult. I feel like it gets harder every year. I don’t think quick on my feet anymore. It’s like my brain is sludge.
June 14, 2025 at 11:36 PM
I can’t think enough to write. I can’t order my thoughts. If someone is talking to me it’s even more difficult. I feel like it gets harder every year. I don’t think quick on my feet anymore. It’s like my brain is sludge.
I straight up don’t want to draw. Or paint. I’ve got sixth scale head sculpts I need to paint and I can’t bring myself to touch them.
June 14, 2025 at 11:36 PM
I straight up don’t want to draw. Or paint. I’ve got sixth scale head sculpts I need to paint and I can’t bring myself to touch them.
Anyway. I’m not doing so hot mental health wise. I’m at the point where I’m tired of existing and mentioning it feels like screaming into the void.
June 14, 2025 at 11:36 PM
Anyway. I’m not doing so hot mental health wise. I’m at the point where I’m tired of existing and mentioning it feels like screaming into the void.
I don’t even know if I make sense anymore. I live a day at a time because of this TBI.
June 14, 2025 at 11:36 PM
I don’t even know if I make sense anymore. I live a day at a time because of this TBI.
I’m supposed to give myself something to look forward to, but I can’t think too far ahead because I don’t know how my head will be doing until whatever’s happening happens.
June 14, 2025 at 11:36 PM
I’m supposed to give myself something to look forward to, but I can’t think too far ahead because I don’t know how my head will be doing until whatever’s happening happens.