Alan Zaugg
@jedizaugg.bsky.social
I am a Jedi. I live life on my own terms in the dark corners of my mind. I choose to be happy if my mind allows. #MentalHealthAdvocate #SuicideAwareness
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I can't seem to do anything right. Lol. At all.
November 9, 2025 at 3:21 AM
I can't seem to do anything right. Lol. At all.
Without fail, my ex still finds a way to pit my kids against me. Not that I need help saying stupid things anyway. 😮💨
According to her, I'm a bad father who cares more about my wife and step kids than about my own kids.
Doesn't help that I have just felt like a complete idiot and loser of late.
According to her, I'm a bad father who cares more about my wife and step kids than about my own kids.
Doesn't help that I have just felt like a complete idiot and loser of late.
November 9, 2025 at 3:20 AM
Without fail, my ex still finds a way to pit my kids against me. Not that I need help saying stupid things anyway. 😮💨
According to her, I'm a bad father who cares more about my wife and step kids than about my own kids.
Doesn't help that I have just felt like a complete idiot and loser of late.
According to her, I'm a bad father who cares more about my wife and step kids than about my own kids.
Doesn't help that I have just felt like a complete idiot and loser of late.
Reflection: I have spent time reflecting on my past and wondering why I deserve the blessings I have now. I've squandered much and hurt people. I've been less of a man that I should have been. Yet here I sit, with a new chance at life, wondering to myself why I would be worthy of this chance.
October 3, 2025 at 5:06 PM
Reflection: I have spent time reflecting on my past and wondering why I deserve the blessings I have now. I've squandered much and hurt people. I've been less of a man that I should have been. Yet here I sit, with a new chance at life, wondering to myself why I would be worthy of this chance.
Oh, and Keys on Main in SLC has named a drink in my honor. It's my favorite go to drink.
I'll give you a hint. It's a song from one of my favorite bands.
I'll give you a hint. It's a song from one of my favorite bands.
October 2, 2025 at 5:35 AM
Oh, and Keys on Main in SLC has named a drink in my honor. It's my favorite go to drink.
I'll give you a hint. It's a song from one of my favorite bands.
I'll give you a hint. It's a song from one of my favorite bands.
Hi. Checking in. This is the year of anxiety for me. Yes I've had a lot of stress to bear. I've been met with many a disappointment. I continue to navigate and shoulder it. I've been depressed as hell at times. Even considered self harm again (but said no). All that said, I'm coping and I'm alive.
October 2, 2025 at 5:30 AM
Hi. Checking in. This is the year of anxiety for me. Yes I've had a lot of stress to bear. I've been met with many a disappointment. I continue to navigate and shoulder it. I've been depressed as hell at times. Even considered self harm again (but said no). All that said, I'm coping and I'm alive.
Oh on that note, anyone looking for a new home? I have one in selling. 3k square feet, 7 years old - hoping to get 650K out of it. 🤞
Not on the market quite yet, but coming.
Not on the market quite yet, but coming.
August 15, 2025 at 1:19 AM
Oh on that note, anyone looking for a new home? I have one in selling. 3k square feet, 7 years old - hoping to get 650K out of it. 🤞
Not on the market quite yet, but coming.
Not on the market quite yet, but coming.
Got the MRI back on my hot mess of a left knee. Already severe osteoarthritis; no cartilage in the joint; a few bone spurs; now I have a torn/flipped meniscus. Orthoscopic knee surgery in the coming weeks. Great timing as I'm putting one house on the market and putting up brick on the new house. 😮💨
August 15, 2025 at 1:16 AM
Got the MRI back on my hot mess of a left knee. Already severe osteoarthritis; no cartilage in the joint; a few bone spurs; now I have a torn/flipped meniscus. Orthoscopic knee surgery in the coming weeks. Great timing as I'm putting one house on the market and putting up brick on the new house. 😮💨
We've lost MikeyVP and now Clint. My Twitter OG brothers are dropping like flies. Clint, as harsh as he could have been, was a good friend. I even had my struggles with him a bit. He was a genuine, passionate man. Didn't hide behind a mask or online image. He was just him.
August 8, 2025 at 3:47 AM
We've lost MikeyVP and now Clint. My Twitter OG brothers are dropping like flies. Clint, as harsh as he could have been, was a good friend. I even had my struggles with him a bit. He was a genuine, passionate man. Didn't hide behind a mask or online image. He was just him.
I hit a bucket of balls with my son this morning. Man I have been away from golf for a long time.
a man in a red jacket is standing in the grass holding a golf club
ALT: a man in a red jacket is standing in the grass holding a golf club
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August 3, 2025 at 4:54 PM
I hit a bucket of balls with my son this morning. Man I have been away from golf for a long time.
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But I was told these guys weren’t athletic. “Plumbers” they said…
May 31, 2025 at 3:51 AM
But I was told these guys weren’t athletic. “Plumbers” they said…
Even when life is good; when circumstances are exceptional, healthy and one is happy, depression can still exist. It can still cast a shadow. Live to fight another day.
May 19, 2025 at 2:09 PM
Even when life is good; when circumstances are exceptional, healthy and one is happy, depression can still exist. It can still cast a shadow. Live to fight another day.
Anyway. Life goes on. I love my kids so much. I also care about my ex-wife. Maybe I shouldn't, but I do.
April 19, 2025 at 3:51 PM
Anyway. Life goes on. I love my kids so much. I also care about my ex-wife. Maybe I shouldn't, but I do.
I'm building a new house, so we can finally sell both our homes and get one of our own. I've offered my oldest to come, her boys as well. I've set stipulations and boundaries. She's chosen not to come. But I'm "kicking her out." Not my words, my daughter's and my ex's. I "favor my step kids." 😮💨
April 19, 2025 at 3:50 PM
I'm building a new house, so we can finally sell both our homes and get one of our own. I've offered my oldest to come, her boys as well. I've set stipulations and boundaries. She's chosen not to come. But I'm "kicking her out." Not my words, my daughter's and my ex's. I "favor my step kids." 😮💨
Being the father of adult children in a divorced situation is hard; and having two houses. I hardly get to see my kids much. They're always at their mom's hanging out with her. I'm vilified by her so that only makes it worse. I'm "a bad father." "Why do I make them pay their phone/insurance bills?"
April 19, 2025 at 3:48 PM
Being the father of adult children in a divorced situation is hard; and having two houses. I hardly get to see my kids much. They're always at their mom's hanging out with her. I'm vilified by her so that only makes it worse. I'm "a bad father." "Why do I make them pay their phone/insurance bills?"
Well, our 2025 adventures are just beginning. Stepdaughter getting married in 2 months and we're waiting architect rendering of our new home, then we work to get our two homes put on the market. I'm excited and growing anxiety.
April 7, 2025 at 3:34 PM
Well, our 2025 adventures are just beginning. Stepdaughter getting married in 2 months and we're waiting architect rendering of our new home, then we work to get our two homes put on the market. I'm excited and growing anxiety.
I was walking with my daughter around Farmington station and she looked at me, "Dad, you seem pretty chill today."
I told her it's been a relaxing morning. It's been nice. But I can read when my mental state is slightly unstable.
I told her it's been a relaxing morning. It's been nice. But I can read when my mental state is slightly unstable.
April 7, 2025 at 1:54 AM
I was walking with my daughter around Farmington station and she looked at me, "Dad, you seem pretty chill today."
I told her it's been a relaxing morning. It's been nice. But I can read when my mental state is slightly unstable.
I told her it's been a relaxing morning. It's been nice. But I can read when my mental state is slightly unstable.
Meds don't fix things, but they certainly help even out the playing field a bit. I started out easily irritated this morning. Couldn't figure out why. I took an anxiety med, and I could manage whatever it was better.
April 7, 2025 at 1:53 AM
Meds don't fix things, but they certainly help even out the playing field a bit. I started out easily irritated this morning. Couldn't figure out why. I took an anxiety med, and I could manage whatever it was better.
John's (Jerms) sister created something and sent it to me. Oh my heart. ☺️💙
April 3, 2025 at 12:17 AM
John's (Jerms) sister created something and sent it to me. Oh my heart. ☺️💙