Thank you for reading this long ass thread, I feel like I had to speak from what I’ve truly felt after many of my friends been telling me “It’s a bad idea to talk about drama in public” even if I wasn’t gonna name drop like a fool it feels nice talking about something that finally ended made me glad

even with remembering some of the best time in your life, there is a point where People hide themselves from what they truly are, and it sucks finding out it really does. So now finally being able to move on from something is the best feeling I’ve ever had in my life

After hearing the same bullshit of “Oh this guy tweeted about this other guy” or “Person is talking about drama again” and “This piece of shit is talking mad shit about me” for 2 YEARS straight and then it stopped. It felt like how people describe graduating college, never going back in there

someone fight a losing war against themselves… that realization that it finally ended put a lot of shit into my head thinking it was finally over. That feeling is the feeling that bothers me because after dealing with so much drama ruins a man so much that it feels like a regular 9-5 schedule

quiet after someone had to talk some sense into them. It fills in a feeling of relief. The relief that someone who’s actually had the time to speak out the truth while I struggled with my personal stuff puts a smile in my face, And then it’s the aftermath of everything. The aftermath of spectating

And friends who I know I can trust helped me guide to the right path, it made me smile again, it reminded me that there is still hope for maintaining a good friendship to those who’ve actually mattered and isn’t some piece of shit liar and then once you’ve finally realized those guys finally stayed

The feeling of, trying to handle anything that has happened to me for the past 2 years, I’ve been out to handle the bullshit of those who’ve pissed me off, honestly im glad I cut ties with them, It gave a sort of relief to let to of someone and now that I get to interact to the mutuals

So to start things of is the shit that happened around 6+ months ago relating to some douchebag im not friends with anymore but I will refuse to drop names since it’s stupid to even waste a breath on them even if im alr doing but I don’t wanna say he is on my mind 24/7 it’s a more weirder feeling

I haven’t been feeling well recently

again sorry if this account is only being using for venting is just that I don’t wanna do it somewhere else

Proof

Also Eggman Land was not THAT hard as people said it was (at least some close mutuals)

last thing on how much this has impacted me I’m even considering getting diagnosed for ADHD on how much this has been impacting me recently I’ll probably try and get diagnosed over the summer but this does conclude the thread

Again I really do hope things go well for me and my closest folks I mer

I wasn’t really caught or punished for it because no one really saw it but it’s been a wild ride for me I do hope this year have a much better outcome compared to the last one, I also hope that I can improve much more with these things

I was crying all day for her loss even in school a lot of counselors were comforting me even some of my IRL and Online friends too which I appreciate the support, I think I remember beating the ever living shit of a kid for making an “The Alpha is a bad mood” joke even after I told him to stop

But one thing that has majorly impacting me was the death of my great grandmother last year who I wasn’t able to share off my goodbyes too since she died in a place I was too far from to wish her a safe place above and it’s been crawling down my spine and how that day has really affected me

Last year has been a bunch of weird feelings and emotions shoved into a blender and shoved down my throat in the middle of mixing thoughts, I had my ups and downs, I still think about my downs a lot more recently ever since school has been horrible on my own hands