Joni
@jcarrigen.bsky.social
Got to see Wake Up Deadman tonight with amazing people. Amazing film & need to watch again. Worthy of the theatre experience all the way. Need to watch it again, but it is currently coming up fast to how it ranks to the first. And might pull ahead.
November 26, 2025 at 8:14 AM
Got to see Wake Up Deadman tonight with amazing people. Amazing film & need to watch again. Worthy of the theatre experience all the way. Need to watch it again, but it is currently coming up fast to how it ranks to the first. And might pull ahead.
2025 Fucked up trauma brain thought 172
Knowing how much people have paid for you (down to minutes), a break down of each part of you & the price to damage.
But question & doubt that normal people & those you like find you attractive or want your time, because you are damaged, used, or worse.
Knowing how much people have paid for you (down to minutes), a break down of each part of you & the price to damage.
But question & doubt that normal people & those you like find you attractive or want your time, because you are damaged, used, or worse.
November 4, 2025 at 6:17 PM
2025 Fucked up trauma brain thought 172
Knowing how much people have paid for you (down to minutes), a break down of each part of you & the price to damage.
But question & doubt that normal people & those you like find you attractive or want your time, because you are damaged, used, or worse.
Knowing how much people have paid for you (down to minutes), a break down of each part of you & the price to damage.
But question & doubt that normal people & those you like find you attractive or want your time, because you are damaged, used, or worse.
Having the dread and uncertainty sitting in me like a weight pulling me down, is nearly as bad as it was the first time. Now though it’s set against the knowledge of what might come. Which is its own special horror. Gods I hate being back here for a third time in less than 10 years.
October 23, 2025 at 8:45 AM
Having the dread and uncertainty sitting in me like a weight pulling me down, is nearly as bad as it was the first time. Now though it’s set against the knowledge of what might come. Which is its own special horror. Gods I hate being back here for a third time in less than 10 years.
Well this feels like history Deja Vu & my brain is totally stressing over it & the fact that I don’t even have a job to help mitigate the possible coming tidal wave of expenses. At least I know now how to answer a lot of questions from doctors when they prod me.
October 21, 2025 at 7:36 PM
Well this feels like history Deja Vu & my brain is totally stressing over it & the fact that I don’t even have a job to help mitigate the possible coming tidal wave of expenses. At least I know now how to answer a lot of questions from doctors when they prod me.
Why is it that I can have unexpected traumatic stuff happen to me and let my brain just slide through it because I have dealt with shit so much, but when I have uncertainty or time to prepare for it my brain goes into overdrive & nerves make me sick as a dog?
October 21, 2025 at 4:53 PM
Why is it that I can have unexpected traumatic stuff happen to me and let my brain just slide through it because I have dealt with shit so much, but when I have uncertainty or time to prepare for it my brain goes into overdrive & nerves make me sick as a dog?
There is still lots of joy when I realize my boobs are growing more. Let’s see how big I can get before surgery shall we?(helps offset finally deciding to cut my hair along with the bleach, this weekend for my mental health)
October 16, 2025 at 5:34 AM
There is still lots of joy when I realize my boobs are growing more. Let’s see how big I can get before surgery shall we?(helps offset finally deciding to cut my hair along with the bleach, this weekend for my mental health)
FOB covering one of my favorite songs from one of the best Muppets movies of all time is pure joy today! 🥰💖
It Feels Like Christmas (Spotify Singles Holiday)
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October 15, 2025 at 5:39 PM
FOB covering one of my favorite songs from one of the best Muppets movies of all time is pure joy today! 🥰💖
I can say a lot about my body causing additional problems for my lack of sleep, but at least I got to wake up to an amusing note with two sides of me fighting over wanting a collar tattoo. (There is something to unpack there, but it was cute & I will take the win with how I am feeling this morning)
October 6, 2025 at 2:18 PM
I can say a lot about my body causing additional problems for my lack of sleep, but at least I got to wake up to an amusing note with two sides of me fighting over wanting a collar tattoo. (There is something to unpack there, but it was cute & I will take the win with how I am feeling this morning)
Showing my wife “Bound” for the first time and I so want a set of lock-pick earrings again.
October 5, 2025 at 1:44 AM
Showing my wife “Bound” for the first time and I so want a set of lock-pick earrings again.
Been on a bit of a reread kick. Its on odd itch I find that i am scratching after following up simultaneously Tender is the Flesh & Tell Me I Am Worthless, then some Wayward Children & Finishing School, now Kushiel’s Dart & Night Circus with a side of Carmilla the First Vampire.
September 20, 2025 at 1:09 AM
Been on a bit of a reread kick. Its on odd itch I find that i am scratching after following up simultaneously Tender is the Flesh & Tell Me I Am Worthless, then some Wayward Children & Finishing School, now Kushiel’s Dart & Night Circus with a side of Carmilla the First Vampire.
I should not be looking at the Halloween build a bears when I am still looking for a job. But I could not resist and I am in love with a lot of them.
September 19, 2025 at 2:12 AM
I should not be looking at the Halloween build a bears when I am still looking for a job. But I could not resist and I am in love with a lot of them.
4 years, 3 months, 5 days
Needed to look cute today even if only a little bit. Especially with being good and not having a smoke even when I really crave it. I am going to totally have to have a massive smoke out when I get this surgery over.
Needed to look cute today even if only a little bit. Especially with being good and not having a smoke even when I really crave it. I am going to totally have to have a massive smoke out when I get this surgery over.
September 17, 2025 at 6:08 AM
4 years, 3 months, 5 days
Needed to look cute today even if only a little bit. Especially with being good and not having a smoke even when I really crave it. I am going to totally have to have a massive smoke out when I get this surgery over.
Needed to look cute today even if only a little bit. Especially with being good and not having a smoke even when I really crave it. I am going to totally have to have a massive smoke out when I get this surgery over.
Watching The Wrong Paris & I cannot help but want to play a larp with this scenario.
September 14, 2025 at 2:49 AM
Watching The Wrong Paris & I cannot help but want to play a larp with this scenario.
For a girl who had never had a Baja Blast until last year, I have become hooked.
August 18, 2025 at 9:55 PM
For a girl who had never had a Baja Blast until last year, I have become hooked.
My wife & I may have just decided to do a podcast of reading Homestuck, since I have made it 4 decades without reading or interacting much with it.
August 9, 2025 at 10:40 PM
My wife & I may have just decided to do a podcast of reading Homestuck, since I have made it 4 decades without reading or interacting much with it.
2 interviews tomorrow. I could really use some luck on both.
July 22, 2025 at 9:13 PM
2 interviews tomorrow. I could really use some luck on both.
I love my kitties, but I really wish them getting better along did not result in my feet getting mauled because they think they are toys. People who teach cats to play with feet, I am sorry you are wrong and I wish you had not started this teaching cycle. 😅
July 21, 2025 at 9:20 PM
I love my kitties, but I really wish them getting better along did not result in my feet getting mauled because they think they are toys. People who teach cats to play with feet, I am sorry you are wrong and I wish you had not started this teaching cycle. 😅
My kitty may be a bigger She-Ra fan than I am. He especially loves watching when Catra is on tv.
July 21, 2025 at 3:07 AM
My kitty may be a bigger She-Ra fan than I am. He especially loves watching when Catra is on tv.
One month ago I saw Kyo for the first time, a week later he came home. And now he and Bedelia are finally getting better along with they actually slept touching each other today and been super close without fighting while I fought a migraine. I love him so much.
July 14, 2025 at 4:11 AM
One month ago I saw Kyo for the first time, a week later he came home. And now he and Bedelia are finally getting better along with they actually slept touching each other today and been super close without fighting while I fought a migraine. I love him so much.
I think our cats are about to release a album soon. They are totally practicing their cover shots.
July 5, 2025 at 4:49 PM
I think our cats are about to release a album soon. They are totally practicing their cover shots.
With everything going on in the world I need an outlet, so I thinking I will do some photoshoots sometime soon. I have missed it more than I care to admit.
July 5, 2025 at 1:57 AM
With everything going on in the world I need an outlet, so I thinking I will do some photoshoots sometime soon. I have missed it more than I care to admit.
If anyone needs me for a while, please use text. Had to push and stretch my pitch and range today & having a mix of bad physical and trauma pain from old damage to my throat.
June 27, 2025 at 7:17 PM
If anyone needs me for a while, please use text. Had to push and stretch my pitch and range today & having a mix of bad physical and trauma pain from old damage to my throat.
Watching K-pop Demon Hunter after lazily continuing my digimon rewatch feels like the right call. Loving it & definitely recommend. But this from a girl thinking she really wants to cosplay Kari, Angewomon, & Lady Devimon & checking prices on figures she had to sell, so take it for what you will.
June 22, 2025 at 4:36 PM
Watching K-pop Demon Hunter after lazily continuing my digimon rewatch feels like the right call. Loving it & definitely recommend. But this from a girl thinking she really wants to cosplay Kari, Angewomon, & Lady Devimon & checking prices on figures she had to sell, so take it for what you will.
For my birthday my wife got me the best birthday gift ever. Meet Kyo (named after Fruits Basket of course), a truly lovable boy. I adore him so much.
June 22, 2025 at 3:12 PM
For my birthday my wife got me the best birthday gift ever. Meet Kyo (named after Fruits Basket of course), a truly lovable boy. I adore him so much.