Jay is dieting
@jayspo.bsky.social
a hundred and something pounds
23 // diary // they/she
23 // diary // they/she
Its so weird when we’re together I feel like we’re completely in love but then I dont see him and he doesnt text me often enough and I think we’re on the verge of breaking up. Hmmm this might be the black and white thinking my therapist was talking about how do I fix my undiagnosed bpd
November 17, 2025 at 8:42 PM
Its so weird when we’re together I feel like we’re completely in love but then I dont see him and he doesnt text me often enough and I think we’re on the verge of breaking up. Hmmm this might be the black and white thinking my therapist was talking about how do I fix my undiagnosed bpd
unintentionally maintaining. All of my meals have either been a bowl of chips, a bowl of fruit & veggies, or a random assortment of proteins.
November 17, 2025 at 7:52 PM
unintentionally maintaining. All of my meals have either been a bowl of chips, a bowl of fruit & veggies, or a random assortment of proteins.
Through no fault but my own
November 17, 2025 at 7:51 PM
Through no fault but my own
Maybe I’ll start watching anime again
November 16, 2025 at 6:15 PM
Maybe I’ll start watching anime again
Me when my dad opens a bottle of bourbon on a Monday night
November 11, 2025 at 6:04 AM
Me when my dad opens a bottle of bourbon on a Monday night
After a whole year of trying to make hygiene and self care a habit rather than a task…i just got up out of bed to floss and brush my teeth without even thinking about it. :) goodnight everyone
November 8, 2025 at 7:08 AM
After a whole year of trying to make hygiene and self care a habit rather than a task…i just got up out of bed to floss and brush my teeth without even thinking about it. :) goodnight everyone
Been baking a lot recently but these set off the fire alarm 😭 made with zero calorie sugar
November 8, 2025 at 1:46 AM
Been baking a lot recently but these set off the fire alarm 😭 made with zero calorie sugar
I havent been eating much but drinking has made me puffy
November 7, 2025 at 5:41 PM
I havent been eating much but drinking has made me puffy
If you’re reading this tell me about your day :) did you see anything cool
November 7, 2025 at 12:23 AM
If you’re reading this tell me about your day :) did you see anything cool
At least I know how to hold a conversation that makes the other person feel included and seen and heard. I try my hardest to make others feel like their days lives and work matter. I hope one day I can meet someone like me.
November 6, 2025 at 7:24 PM
At least I know how to hold a conversation that makes the other person feel included and seen and heard. I try my hardest to make others feel like their days lives and work matter. I hope one day I can meet someone like me.
Hi Im sorry for the scare, I took myself out to see a movie and I feel a little better.
November 4, 2025 at 1:36 AM
Hi Im sorry for the scare, I took myself out to see a movie and I feel a little better.
I think I’ll do it. I think I’ll put me out of my misery.
November 3, 2025 at 3:21 PM
I think I’ll do it. I think I’ll put me out of my misery.
Im not even a person
November 3, 2025 at 3:19 PM
Im not even a person
It doesn’t matter what I say, or what Im talking about. my anger is always shamed
November 3, 2025 at 2:59 PM
It doesn’t matter what I say, or what Im talking about. my anger is always shamed
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First four from pinterest. Ive been crying all day so this is really nice
June 14, 2025 at 12:09 AM
First four from pinterest. Ive been crying all day so this is really nice
Good news is Ive been to depressed to eat properly (all of my meals have consisted of rice and spam) and my waist looks snatched rn
October 30, 2025 at 4:21 PM
Good news is Ive been to depressed to eat properly (all of my meals have consisted of rice and spam) and my waist looks snatched rn
I feel very upset and envious when I see a family having fun and being silly. Its like wow i bet those kids really trust their parents. And then its: Jesus, What have i been missing out on? How much more well equipped for life would I be if my family was like that?
October 30, 2025 at 3:48 PM
I feel very upset and envious when I see a family having fun and being silly. Its like wow i bet those kids really trust their parents. And then its: Jesus, What have i been missing out on? How much more well equipped for life would I be if my family was like that?
Im sorry that Ive been inactive Ive been considering uprooting my entire life for the sake of happiness
October 30, 2025 at 6:38 AM
Im sorry that Ive been inactive Ive been considering uprooting my entire life for the sake of happiness
What hurts is that my mom is trying so hard to
October 30, 2025 at 6:38 AM
What hurts is that my mom is trying so hard to
But when I pour my heart out in a real way and tell him about my uncomfortable circumstances he doesnt respond hmm okay
He stopped by my house on his way home just to give me kisses and a hug before going back on his way 🥺🥺🥺🥺
October 28, 2025 at 3:09 AM
But when I pour my heart out in a real way and tell him about my uncomfortable circumstances he doesnt respond hmm okay
Just had this thought: “I love myself I just dont like myself”
October 28, 2025 at 3:01 AM
Just had this thought: “I love myself I just dont like myself”
Im just not sure how to communicate that Im not dojng okay
October 28, 2025 at 1:50 AM
Im just not sure how to communicate that Im not dojng okay
I need to learn how to tell my parents “no”. Im glad my mom is taking a step by asking “can I hug you” instead of forcing herself on me, but I dont feel safe saying “no” even when I dont want it. I end up feeling so gross afterwards. Years of manipulation to unlearn. I feel so dirty.
October 27, 2025 at 9:29 PM
I need to learn how to tell my parents “no”. Im glad my mom is taking a step by asking “can I hug you” instead of forcing herself on me, but I dont feel safe saying “no” even when I dont want it. I end up feeling so gross afterwards. Years of manipulation to unlearn. I feel so dirty.
Idc What job I just need A job
October 27, 2025 at 3:46 AM
Idc What job I just need A job