Move at your own pace that you are comfortable in. If you force yourself to smile when you aren't well, it'll hurt you and those around you who genuinely care about you. Let yourself take time to recover when needed, or else you'll burn yourself away and may have regrets in the near future.

I'm just… very exhausted from being plagued by news of deaths of many people around me, IRL and online, year after year. It chips away at my heart, it wounds me further without being able to heal. "No more" I beg even if I know it's futile, "how many more" I ask it, "I'm sorry" when another passed.

I should rest more while I still can. I still need to do what I can, for the sake of those that still have the will to go forward, for the sake of those that still depend on me. I won't deny that I'm exhausted, but I'll burn my own hair to give enough warmth for a friend to live another day.

I don't expect people to believe the pain I endured nor to understand it. It's for the best as it means that there's still lives out there that are fortunate to survive amidst chaos. I don't anyone to go through what I did; I still wish for a compassionate world someday, even if not in my lifetime.

Until another chaos happens.

… And this is why I always stock up on talismans to throw at people.

Jokes on you, Red Lion. You're getting ambushed by even more anomalies on the way while crossing through dimensions now.

In other words, I'm taking you with me—

I have now been human trafficked in the Jianghu and ended up in the afterlife a second time now— Which I forgot to mention that I was also in the afterlife again earlier.

This is a field trip alright.
(This is all from a video game.)

Half baked, half boiled, seasoned with herbs and spices, and some melted cheese.

If my friends are interested, then I'm willing to try to do so at least once to see how it goes. I'll probably need a few tools since my old ones went missing, but I'll put it on my to-do list then to see how I feel about it.

I just find myself lost in my own world and happier when I work on them since childhood, but it's been a while too so I'm rusty on it. I'll probably take more time to think about it. Just rambling a few thoughts out loud at this point.

It's a funny situation where I don't mind streaming as long as I can be myself, but I know that if too many people are around then it's too much pressure and irks me. I just enjoy having my comfort and peace, and robotics puts me at ease that I tune out from all the bad things around me easily.