idk if this is just me spiraling and doomposting but you know how fucking awful it feels to be clearly too much of a case for the person thats supposed to be a professional in the room? like i really am just kinda on my own to figure this shit out or not. im just tired of feeling like im on my own.

everything feels Like Shit and my therapist is new so despite her efforts i cant say anything has helped. shes lovely but all weve done so far is catch up on my fucked family situation and talk about how my irrational ideation is, in fact, irrational

like what the fuck do i even do when even the stuff im excited about is already draining me weeks before it even happens and nothing is fun anymore

god i cant wait for the second collapse of the video game industry to come already

do i even wanna ask

i should invoice you for the time i spent trying to comprehend this at 9 in the morning but i respect the craft too much, keep it up mr. chadpoon

i dont have the greatest handle on words right now but you're feminine as hell, i hope things get better 🫂

pros:
-urinals/peeing at the side of the highway at night
-it's really funny
-considered sexually exotic

cons:
-can't wear slutty skirts
-existential anguish
-treated like original sin
-specific drive for intimacy that's physically impossible
-considered sexually exotic