Jackie Baldry 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈
jackiebaldry.bsky.social
Jackie Baldry 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈
@jackiebaldry.bsky.social
immigrant, middle-aged, questioning gender, m2f, wtf

probably wrong about everything. she/her
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Well this is weird. The other week I told my therapist I felt like I was coming to the end of my therapy but instead it looks like I've simply unlocked a whole new level.

I've spent my adult life thinking I was an unhappy gay man when in fact I've been an unhappy trans-woman.

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I was also rubbish at being gay. Even though I moved to Brighton and came out in my early 20s and subsequently lived there for the best part of 30 years I never felt like I fitted into the gay scene. I never felt like I was a proper gay man. Now I know I wasn't.
January 13, 2026 at 10:10 AM
When I hit adolescence I realised that I was sexually attracted to the other boys around me. I simply could not comprehend how I could be gay. The trauma from this literally destroyed me. I developed Hashimoto's - an autoimmune disease that normally affects women!

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January 13, 2026 at 10:08 AM
I've tried being every kind of boy. I was a particularly rubbish straight boy. One girlfriend said that having sex with me was like having sex with her best friend. That makes a lot more sense now.
January 13, 2026 at 10:01 AM
Veering wildly between "you must be fucking kidding" and "I want boobs".
January 13, 2026 at 3:45 AM
A really important point (to me) I came across in a YouTube video was that perhaps, quite early on, it's possible to come to the conclusion that the knowledge that you are trans isn't safe to know. It therefore gets buried until your psyche decides otherwise. That's where I am now.
January 12, 2026 at 8:28 PM
Transphobia has been making me sick to my stomach for years. I used to think it was because it was a reflection of the homophobia I experienced when I was growing up but now I'm beginning to understand that it was touching something deeper and hidden.
January 12, 2026 at 2:46 PM
Now I know why I've always preferred straight rom-coms to musicals.
January 12, 2026 at 2:33 PM
It's surprisingly satisfying wearing nail varnish for the first time.
January 12, 2026 at 2:02 PM
I left school 40 years ago with 3 good A-Levels and a serious personality disorder. It's taken this long to heal. Now I've finally made some progress, the authentic me is starting to emerge.
January 12, 2026 at 1:52 PM
Well this is weird. The other week I told my therapist I felt like I was coming to the end of my therapy but instead it looks like I've simply unlocked a whole new level.

I've spent my adult life thinking I was an unhappy gay man when in fact I've been an unhappy trans-woman.

1/n
January 12, 2026 at 1:47 PM