Reading romcom manga really made me feel like i should try romance huh...😩

Seeing how your relatives are following your footsteps, through idolism or misplaced trust, is nauseating.

Maybe i was that someone then. Now, i am not.

I know that look. You're afraid of the future so you step on the path other traversed.

I too, am loss.

Do not do this, please.

It's too heavy.

Thinking again, it's pathetic how quick i am to vent all my worries and insecurities to the people in my mind yet how deafening my silence of my problem in real life.

Not my friends, therapists nor my family.

I left clues of it for them yet I'm always quick to burn traces of it when they find it.

I'm tired. Am I tired? I need to do it. I don't want to do it. Do I want to do it? I know. I do not know. I'm sure. I'm not sure.

Clueless. Fruitless. Pessimistic. Parasitic. Vile. Futile.

Keep moving forward lest I fall over backward.

When I die, will it be a goodbye?

Misery does love knocking at a weird time huh...

Well, have a seat and please behave yourself in my house.

When your time is up, please, leave.

man i really need to buy new cloth huh...

man i really had given up am i?

or does it not count because i never even tried in the first place?

I dont wanna die yet my mind keeps telling me to.

Sometimes... my heart would start beating slower. The slower it beats, the heavier it feels. I'm feeling sad yet not sad enough for tears to fall.

If only... if only, my heart stronger than this. If only i know wheres my happiness is. Just maybe...