literally “oh its you, well welcome back to the show”

i was 100% underdressed, it was 90 degrees outside (the venue did have ac which was awesome), the buttertones is a small band so i was in a small room jam packed with people, THEN TO TOP IT ALL OFF, i was harassed the whole night by a middle aged drunk guy and missed half of the show

like i had just finished an 10 hour shift at work and didnt have the time to go home and shower so i just brought a change of clothes, i was starting to get sick so i couldnt breathe, was tired, had a raging headache, i forgot my id and the door person was making fun of (and lowkey scolding) me

like not afraid to be myself. and i am a lot mentally healthier than i was back in school. but it sucks bc when i think about it, even back then i was in a draining cycle of going to school and coming home to do nothing. so did i really get better or did i get used to it?

and now here i am, i graduated 2 years ago, didnt go to college, stuck in a cycle of going to work then coming home to do nothing, and i have 1 friend i really consider “close” i would have 2 but our relationship kinda went downhill. granted i feel amazing when im with that one close friend-

THANK YOU AS DO YOU QUEEN 💕