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TTRPG & Video Game Design. Narrative Design. Worldbuilding. Writing. Professional GMing. Sometimes Linguistics and Psychology. Non-Binary (They/Them) ND Ammi-Maltese Australian.
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I think Passion has served me well, but it's...elusive. I think, for 34, I need Focus.
So that's my 34:
- dropping Honesty,
- changing Fellowship for Community,
- keeping Peace,
- and changing Passion for Focus.
A big shake-up. Let's see what happens.
So that's my 34:
- dropping Honesty,
- changing Fellowship for Community,
- keeping Peace,
- and changing Passion for Focus.
A big shake-up. Let's see what happens.
November 23, 2025 at 9:33 PM
I think Passion has served me well, but it's...elusive. I think, for 34, I need Focus.
So that's my 34:
- dropping Honesty,
- changing Fellowship for Community,
- keeping Peace,
- and changing Passion for Focus.
A big shake-up. Let's see what happens.
So that's my 34:
- dropping Honesty,
- changing Fellowship for Community,
- keeping Peace,
- and changing Passion for Focus.
A big shake-up. Let's see what happens.
I've found work (through a dear old friend) that I'm enjoying immensely, combining things I have loved since LONG before I was sick. I have started projects, and got hyped, and sold things to others, and all that shit. There's Passion there, but it's at war with my ability.
November 23, 2025 at 9:30 PM
I've found work (through a dear old friend) that I'm enjoying immensely, combining things I have loved since LONG before I was sick. I have started projects, and got hyped, and sold things to others, and all that shit. There's Passion there, but it's at war with my ability.
But 33 was also where I got my ADHD diagnosis, and for the first time _ever_ I felt an ability to focus on... _anything_. I felt like things could be achieved if I just _did them_. Sure, the body is still weak (and the kidney stones still hurt like FUCK, ALL THE TIME), but...focus.
November 23, 2025 at 9:29 PM
But 33 was also where I got my ADHD diagnosis, and for the first time _ever_ I felt an ability to focus on... _anything_. I felt like things could be achieved if I just _did them_. Sure, the body is still weak (and the kidney stones still hurt like FUCK, ALL THE TIME), but...focus.
33 was where I felt more generally, ambiently unwell than I ever have before. Long COVID came and went, but chronic illnesses settle into the bones, and they cause your body to fail you. And with the body failing, everything else crumbles: folks drift off, work grows sloppy, and Passion dies.
November 23, 2025 at 9:27 PM
33 was where I felt more generally, ambiently unwell than I ever have before. Long COVID came and went, but chronic illnesses settle into the bones, and they cause your body to fail you. And with the body failing, everything else crumbles: folks drift off, work grows sloppy, and Passion dies.
And finally, there is Passion.
*sigh*
Yeah, this has been a difficult one.
I've been chronically ill for a long time now. In fact, at 34, I've now been ill for the same length of time I was once "healthy." 2009 brought me cancer, and since I have managed.
*sigh*
Yeah, this has been a difficult one.
I've been chronically ill for a long time now. In fact, at 34, I've now been ill for the same length of time I was once "healthy." 2009 brought me cancer, and since I have managed.
November 23, 2025 at 9:26 PM
And finally, there is Passion.
*sigh*
Yeah, this has been a difficult one.
I've been chronically ill for a long time now. In fact, at 34, I've now been ill for the same length of time I was once "healthy." 2009 brought me cancer, and since I have managed.
*sigh*
Yeah, this has been a difficult one.
I've been chronically ill for a long time now. In fact, at 34, I've now been ill for the same length of time I was once "healthy." 2009 brought me cancer, and since I have managed.
Aye. Peace stays. There must be a way to find Peace in others. I have found it at home, with my partner, in ways I never imagined I could. So there must be Peace in wider groups.
I'm comin' after you, Peace, whether you like it or not!
I'm comin' after you, Peace, whether you like it or not!
November 23, 2025 at 9:25 PM
Aye. Peace stays. There must be a way to find Peace in others. I have found it at home, with my partner, in ways I never imagined I could. So there must be Peace in wider groups.
I'm comin' after you, Peace, whether you like it or not!
I'm comin' after you, Peace, whether you like it or not!
One could look at that incompatability and say _it's not gonna work_ — as I was about to — or they could see it as the challenge that Virtues should be. The struggle shouldn't be easy, as Peace was this year. It should push me. Maybe my "success" was actually "surrender," and there's work left.
November 23, 2025 at 9:23 PM
One could look at that incompatability and say _it's not gonna work_ — as I was about to — or they could see it as the challenge that Virtues should be. The struggle shouldn't be easy, as Peace was this year. It should push me. Maybe my "success" was actually "surrender," and there's work left.
But I guess I now know why Hermits are a thing. Peace and Fellowship can't really go hand-in-hand. Avoiding strife means being shy to any threat, and people are by their very nature threatening (alongside all else that can be wonderful). I wonder what I stowed away for the sake of being Peaceful.
November 23, 2025 at 9:21 PM
But I guess I now know why Hermits are a thing. Peace and Fellowship can't really go hand-in-hand. Avoiding strife means being shy to any threat, and people are by their very nature threatening (alongside all else that can be wonderful). I wonder what I stowed away for the sake of being Peaceful.
Which is a pretty war-pathy thing to say before discussing Peace... Heh.
This was a surprise to me, when it came forward, but I think I fuckin' nailed this one. Maybe _too well_ (see above). I removed myself from too much, and let myself be too _on the sidelines_. It felt safe, if tough at times.
This was a surprise to me, when it came forward, but I think I fuckin' nailed this one. Maybe _too well_ (see above). I removed myself from too much, and let myself be too _on the sidelines_. It felt safe, if tough at times.
November 23, 2025 at 9:19 PM
Which is a pretty war-pathy thing to say before discussing Peace... Heh.
This was a surprise to me, when it came forward, but I think I fuckin' nailed this one. Maybe _too well_ (see above). I removed myself from too much, and let myself be too _on the sidelines_. It felt safe, if tough at times.
This was a surprise to me, when it came forward, but I think I fuckin' nailed this one. Maybe _too well_ (see above). I removed myself from too much, and let myself be too _on the sidelines_. It felt safe, if tough at times.
I do want those bonds, but I don't think Fellowship and I will work well together for 34. I think Community is what I need to adopt in its place. I need to serve _something_. I need to be present, regardless of who else is in those spaces. I have yielded too much ground to those undeserving.
November 23, 2025 at 9:17 PM
I do want those bonds, but I don't think Fellowship and I will work well together for 34. I think Community is what I need to adopt in its place. I need to serve _something_. I need to be present, regardless of who else is in those spaces. I have yielded too much ground to those undeserving.
...but I think I may have swung too far the other way. Having said that, I'm not sure I can step beyond those walls, just yet. They're there for a reason; protective, if maladaptive.
I think I've failed Fellowship for 33. But I think it's also the wrong time for it.
I think I've failed Fellowship for 33. But I think it's also the wrong time for it.
November 23, 2025 at 9:16 PM
...but I think I may have swung too far the other way. Having said that, I'm not sure I can step beyond those walls, just yet. They're there for a reason; protective, if maladaptive.
I think I've failed Fellowship for 33. But I think it's also the wrong time for it.
I think I've failed Fellowship for 33. But I think it's also the wrong time for it.
It's not so much that I'm "sabotaging" myself, but more — I believe — a case of me being jaded. I've become guarded, closed off.
I've offered far less of myself over this past year, and naturally gotten far less back. The former was always the plan: to only give to those willing to give...
I've offered far less of myself over this past year, and naturally gotten far less back. The former was always the plan: to only give to those willing to give...
November 23, 2025 at 9:14 PM
It's not so much that I'm "sabotaging" myself, but more — I believe — a case of me being jaded. I've become guarded, closed off.
I've offered far less of myself over this past year, and naturally gotten far less back. The former was always the plan: to only give to those willing to give...
I've offered far less of myself over this past year, and naturally gotten far less back. The former was always the plan: to only give to those willing to give...
I've tried building new community, here and there, either putting down roots myself or finding other groups and seeing if there is space for me. For some reason, I am finding it very difficult to make anything stick; both in terms of it just _not working_ and also in my own self-selecting out.
November 23, 2025 at 9:13 PM
I've tried building new community, here and there, either putting down roots myself or finding other groups and seeing if there is space for me. For some reason, I am finding it very difficult to make anything stick; both in terms of it just _not working_ and also in my own self-selecting out.
...those few I mentioned have come through in massive ways, and I've tried my best to nurture those connections in turn. Fellowship itself has been a difficult Virtue, as it's not just about connection or friendship, but rather a mutual feeling of togetherness, of alignment along goals and ethics.
November 23, 2025 at 9:11 PM
...those few I mentioned have come through in massive ways, and I've tried my best to nurture those connections in turn. Fellowship itself has been a difficult Virtue, as it's not just about connection or friendship, but rather a mutual feeling of togetherness, of alignment along goals and ethics.
Speaking of which: Fellowship.
_Yeah._
This one's fucking _brutal_. Over the last 12 months I've lost...well...essentially every link to community I had, bar a few solid ride-or-die folks. My best friend ghosted me out of nowhere, my mentor disappeared off the face of the Earth, etc.
But...
_Yeah._
This one's fucking _brutal_. Over the last 12 months I've lost...well...essentially every link to community I had, bar a few solid ride-or-die folks. My best friend ghosted me out of nowhere, my mentor disappeared off the face of the Earth, etc.
But...
November 23, 2025 at 9:10 PM
Speaking of which: Fellowship.
_Yeah._
This one's fucking _brutal_. Over the last 12 months I've lost...well...essentially every link to community I had, bar a few solid ride-or-die folks. My best friend ghosted me out of nowhere, my mentor disappeared off the face of the Earth, etc.
But...
_Yeah._
This one's fucking _brutal_. Over the last 12 months I've lost...well...essentially every link to community I had, bar a few solid ride-or-die folks. My best friend ghosted me out of nowhere, my mentor disappeared off the face of the Earth, etc.
But...
It will remain who I am, and I'll stay vigilant over the next year to make sure I don't let it slip and find myself back where I was, but I don't think it needs to be something I challenge myself with on the daily. Which is a very good thing! But it's also saying goodbye to an old friend.
November 23, 2025 at 9:08 PM
It will remain who I am, and I'll stay vigilant over the next year to make sure I don't let it slip and find myself back where I was, but I don't think it needs to be something I challenge myself with on the daily. Which is a very good thing! But it's also saying goodbye to an old friend.
...feel _challenged_ by Honesty. There was a time, many years back, where setting it as a Virtue seemed necessary. Dire, even. I doubt I'd still be here had I not. But it's no longer pushing me, no longer nudging me closer to Qalb. I think I may have run my course for Honesty as a Virtue.
November 23, 2025 at 9:07 PM
...feel _challenged_ by Honesty. There was a time, many years back, where setting it as a Virtue seemed necessary. Dire, even. I doubt I'd still be here had I not. But it's no longer pushing me, no longer nudging me closer to Qalb. I think I may have run my course for Honesty as a Virtue.
For 33, my Virtues were Honesty, Fellowship, Peace, and Passion.
Honesty has been a mainstay for a long time, and realistically I don't feel like there's been much movement, there. I reflected with frankness and truth to the many blows I've received, and have learned what I could. But, I don't...
Honesty has been a mainstay for a long time, and realistically I don't feel like there's been much movement, there. I reflected with frankness and truth to the many blows I've received, and have learned what I could. But, I don't...
November 23, 2025 at 9:05 PM
For 33, my Virtues were Honesty, Fellowship, Peace, and Passion.
Honesty has been a mainstay for a long time, and realistically I don't feel like there's been much movement, there. I reflected with frankness and truth to the many blows I've received, and have learned what I could. But, I don't...
Honesty has been a mainstay for a long time, and realistically I don't feel like there's been much movement, there. I reflected with frankness and truth to the many blows I've received, and have learned what I could. But, I don't...