Today has been very difficult…

She is the one good thing in my life, she truly is. I hope if it ever comes to a point where I were to ever be absent of both body and soul through means which are not so ideal, she finds the happiness she so very deserves

I hope if she reads this one day, she knows that I see her effort that she puts into everything. Being there for me is one, but all the other things she does for others and the kindness that she radiates when the world is constantly in a pitiful state…

Wish they were kinder words tho… words that comfort and soothe rather than hurt and agonise. As though she hasn’t done enough but she truly is the one person who has gone above and beyond

I hate to put my wife through all this but I would hate to leave the world without at least the last few words to be to my wife

I just hope I still have some essence of goodness inside of me when all is said and done

I spend so much time being something that I am not that I feel like the thing that I’m not is slowly being part and parcel of my life

A listener does want to be heard sometimes you know