For clarification if anyone is curious:

Pac-Man and Blinky illustrated by myself using Krita, the logos were also designed by myself in GIMP. The game running is Project OutFox using a Pac-Man theme that I designed and programmed myself within a span of three days.

But yeah, if I try explaining any further what’s wrong with me, I’ll end up derailing the convo because enough people are becoming impatient with me trying to understand why I’m such a spaz more than lately.

Maybe I am going crazy.

First was breaking up with my last ex who was a grifter who basically stole money from me, then having a two major projects to tackle, and recently the Chibikki incident.

I’m still really angry about the first thing, there were things I could’ve said for example, but really shouldn’t say at all.

I still enjoy Chibikki’s art and whatever, but I don’t really see myself commissioning or supporting him if this is how he talks to people if they cross a line without knowing or having any kind of ill intention.

Honestly? I can understand having frustrations but….do better.

The reason I made this post was not because I was wronged or anything, but the fact artists big or small can get away with being extremely toxic or miserable towards ppl is absolutely mind blowing. I literally do not understand this logic of how this behavior from ANYBODY is acceptable anywhere.

I had no idea Chibikki didn’t like fans, I didn’t know he didn’t do fanart unless he really cared, everything I assumed was an honest mistake. And I am sorry for not sugarcoating Chibikki being an asshole, but why on earth was this hostility acceptable? In any decent community, this is not right.

Eventually I gave Chibikki my final apology and finally things were fine, at least for now. But honestly, even tho I started something I had no ill intention with, this really left a very bitter taste in my mouth. I have never seen an artist, big or small, be this nasty towards me for being clueless

I did end up calling him “a bit of an asshole” given how he was blowing up at me and saying shit like “learn to shut up next time” and eventually he gaslights me into apologizing because everything was my fault.

He also made a pretty rude remark on “westerner mentality” in the convo as well

I continue trying to apologize but he doesn’t seem to budge and continues rambling about his hatred for fans and the concept of expectations.

He goes on about how he does not want fans and hates the ideology of being a public figure and expectations on everyday behavior…

…He becomes extremely hostile towards me, I try to clear myself up because I’m not the best with phrasing my messages correctly but he did not have it at all. Eventually the chat did cool off for a bit of time and things were a little normal between me and Chibikki, until he brings it up again…

…and suddenly Chibikki just EXPLODES with sheer rage because of my cluelessness. I’ll mention it several times that I had no idea he didn’t do any of this cuz I don’t check socials at all as much unless I really need to. I brought up how it would be distasteful to be harsh towards a fan and…

It all started because I made a comment in Chibikki’s discord server wondering if he was planning to make fanart for Pac-Man 45th Anniversary because it was an ongoing artist trend at the time, I had no idea about Chibikki’s on this kind of thing at all because I’m hardly on socials…

I cannot take anymore risks with DeBisco, he really needs to find professional help of some sort. He needs to stop taking things to heart, he took his misery to another server because of my confrontation claiming he “feels defeated”.

I’m not trying to cancel the guy, but he very much needs help.

—but this one was going too far.

I understand he is probably under a lot of stress and pressure, but I have no choice but to stay far away from him. I think he’s become dangerous for my own safety, maybe others too.

If he tries to contact me angrily again, I might have to resort to the police.

After the last message, I felt a chill down my spine since I’m pretty close distance wise to him. I highly doubt he would do anything that crazy but I wasn’t taking any chances. I decided to block him finally, and eventually informed other people about what happened.

I knew DeBisco has his moments—

—to get my friend in trouble with their group. I unfriended DeBisco shortly after finding out, and was being sent a ton of DMs later. I talked to a friend of mine who is friends with DeBisco about his behavior, only to get snitched on immediately. DeBisco eventually sent these last five messages.