the only way i can kind of explain it is that i guess my brain was exercising certain principles of music theory even when i wasn't actively practicing LMAO - the break also fixed a bad habit i had of tensing my wrist when i play... i'm still a shit pianist tho don't look at me

anyway part of me is still hoping that when i finally do have the time to draw i'll magically have gotten good at it through observation LMFAOOO WHICH SOUNDS SO LAZY BUT LIKE after i took a 5-year break from piano, when i came back to it i was much better at sight reading. which sounds insane???

idk laughs like i get it? but it's like you had all this time to reply to all of your fawning comments and now defend yourself on the internet claiming you don't use AI when you obviously do... that's the part that makes you a bit sad and pathetic

just fucking draw on your own merits

i guess what i wind up judging though is that it's so lazy. i say this as someone who "knows how to draw" but "is bad at drawing." it wouldn't even be hard for me to draw more, i just don't have the time. one day, yeah, when i do have the time, i would like to draw more

i would have never done the same thing as a teen, mind you, because i actually never liked being internet popular lmfao... but i understand in principle the mental impulses that lead people, especially young people, to lie for attention

i know it's bad with luocha when it excites me to see yours. look at him, he's beautiful. i am so in love for no fucking reason

FUCKING SAME LMAO