anyways, I finished season 5, still looking forward to watch season 6. and now I will indulge myself with a kdrama, even if it makes me a hypocrite, bc why not? I embrace the two sides of me lol

guess I am way too sensitive for this kind of stories...

but, at the same time, it kept stirring up negative emotions towards our society and the way things are...

I really liked it, it kept me entertained and avoiding getting too anxious about moving houses.

I really love her, but I just wish I didn't have to carry with all this emotional load... I want her to see a therapist, I just don't think I'll be able to convince her since I've already tried in the past. Let's see how everything unravels from now on...

she even expects me to fix her issues with his partner... but that seems off to me, even so, I agree because I don't want her to suffer (she's got a rare form of epilepsy, and she cannot stress since it triggers her brain to having seizures).

I wonder if she knows that is extremely painful for me to deal with her wanting to unalive herself every now and then... It hurts, but it also angers me that she isn't seeking for professional help, what else can I do?

just erasing myself in the equation. now, in my thirties, I found someone who cares for me a makes me happy. whilst, mom is dealing with past trauma and depression. I insist she needs therapy, but she won't go...

she's gone thru a lot of tough stuff, and managed to be a good mom all in all. but still, I feel like I shaped my entire life around what would make her happy...

I've been my mom's support ever since I can remember. I know it shouldn't be like that, but it seems it was the role that was in store for me.